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Because you meant and still do mean alot
You really are full of yourself, and you make some of the most ignorant remarks sometimes. But regardless of all that you really were there for me weren't you? Heh, in a way I miss you for other reasons but I won't ask anything of you any more, because that isn't fair and that would mean me being selfish...and even though some times it's ok to be selfish, even though I know this might be a mistake, because you mean so much to me and because it hurts me, I'll do what I think is right for now. You tell me that your happy and that makes me feel damn better about everything anyway. So whether or not I come back into the picture and stand beside you or not really shouldn't matter. You have some one you obviously care about and they may have to come around a a little more but I think they see how amazing you are as well. When I was broken and when I even told you everything, you responded just as I knew you would, that same mocking and ignorant tone in your voice...but you know what, I don't think I'd of wanted it any other way. Because thats the way you are, It's "Who you are" and I've always loved that about you and will continue that way. I think if it's like this I'll be able to move forward I'll return to what I used to be, and maybe that really is for the best this time. Maybe I need to say good bye, and Bless that Lucky son of a b***h who finally snatched you by those heart strings. I couldn't give you that spark to you, and I couldn't be there for you when needed, but this time it'll be different, because he can and most Deffinately will...I never stopped loving you, and in a way that probably makes me pathetic but It is truth and thats simply all that Im stating at this point. So I'll let you fade...I'll let you blend back in to the back ground and I'll bury the memories we made deep with in me and keep them scared in my memory forever, because even though we went through alot and even though sometimes a struggle was all we had...you made me very happy. That will never change, and even though Im nothing special, I do hope you felt something when with me. This is good bye, and out of everything you did for me...I wanted you to know hanging up that phone and pressing end Made me the happiest, because now i know for sure you'll move on too, I know that this time that part of what we shared will be put behind us. I love you, and I will carry you always
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