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ZOMG! Graduation and Gaian Birthday! |
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Well it's almost here, my high school graduation and my first ever Gaian birthday. It's weird to think that I will be completing my general education finally. I remember when I was younger and wished I was a senior, just so I could graduate and not go to school. And now that it's finally here, I have to admit that I am scared to move on with my life. I will be attending a University that is 6 hours away from my home town and I won't know anyone. I have no family or friends that live near there, so it;s safe to say that I will be alone as I officialy start my life. In a way, I don't want to go. I've grown up in the same area and have friends from preschool still. The thought of having a one way ticket and not comming back home nearly puts me to tears. But on the other hand, I'm excited for the many new opportunities I'll have up there. There are many anime shops and cons in that area, I'll be able to get a job and I might get a moped. It's all so exciting and I'm sure I'll love it, it's just that I'm not 100% sure if I'm ready for such a drastic change. I graduate June 13th and move August 18th. I hope everything will turn out alright.
On to a happier note, I'll be celebrating 1 great year of being here on Gaia. I'll say that I've changed a lot since I first started and I have many people to thank! First off, [Emotional Hobocore] because he was my Gaian Angel and helped me when I first started. He was my very first friend! heart Secondly, Amnesic aka SYNTHPOP-CHAN. I met her at AX and she donated to me and I was able to by my very first outfit! She is so awsome! Also, Yugiah who I met in person at AX and who I've become great friends with. I love you so much and I can't wait to see you again! Of course my best friend and seme, Skanky Uo-Chan who I got addicted to Gaia. Aishiteru! lol And my Gaian brother, Anti Nikumu-san who is the greatest big brother ever! Also, thank you everyone else who is on my friends list, each of you has touched me in some way. And of course those who have donated to me and helped me through my impossible nitemare scarf quest! It has been a great year and I hope for another one!
Now then, it wouldn't be much of a graduation or birthday without presents, right? So I made a wishlist. It would really make my day and special occations even better if you bought me something! lol
Barton Boutique: Str8 Jacket- 3210g (By D-sama! heart ) Morgana's gloves- 450g (By D-sama! heart )
Gambino Hat Rack: Anti Bite mask- 566g (By D-sama! heart ) Elegant blue ribbon- 1000g (By Chibi! heart )
Durem Depot: Black street pants- 5500g #ff0000 complex shirt- 6131g G-lol Blood mistress skirt- 1301g (By Chibi! heart )
H.R.Wesley: Stealth InfaRed boots- 5890g Maid Dress- 120100g Black fishnet stockings- 2000g That 70's white shirt- 2500g Maid headband- 2999g Grey university uniform top- 1000g Grey university skirt- 1000g
Crate and Apparel: Red pawprint pajama pants- 850g (By D-sama! heart ) Red pawprint pajama shirt- 850g (By D-sama! heart )
Other: Prisoner's ball and chain Jocker collar red-black Jocker hat red-black Demonic pitchfork Nitemare scarf Trap jaw Some type of fish hat! OMG! Hat Chyaku Norisu Scarf Whip of fire OMFG Hat Just plain gold Avatar art!
Thank you to any one in advanced! heart
Anti Ai-chan · Sun May 07, 2006 @ 07:17am · 1 Comments |
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Not too much has happened since the last time I wrote, but I really felt the need to write something. So here I am. I think I'm going to talk about AX/Cosplay, then my friends, and then this guy...........yes a guy!
So AX (anime expo) is approching fast and I am not ready at all. In fact, I'm so behind it's sad. My mom and I have a few commissions that we still need to do plus the costumes that we will be wearing! And actually, not even one is fully done! I still have hope that we will finish them though! I just need to look at the bright side. But overall, I can't wait for this year's AX. I'm going to be meeting a few new people, which I'm sure will prove to be interesting, and see some old friends as well. Plus there's still the fun of wearing cosplay, watching AMVs, buying stuff, getting free stuff (lol), panels and so much more! I get happy just thinking about it!
Speaking off happy, I wanted to say thank you to all my friends, though half of them won't even read this! lol But seriosly, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have all of you. I might be dead in a ditch or something along those lines, which would probably be bad. You all have touched my life in some way or another and because of you, I am who I am today. I know I'm not the perfect person and I do some pretty stupid things but I'm happy just being me and you have helped me bring back that happiness. Much love to you all!
Love.....What is love? It's defined in the dictionary but I'm not sure there is an actual definition to it. It kind of makes you think....or it just makes me think....lol. I met this guy nearly two years ago, in a really funny/random way which I won't go into! lol We got along great and we talked for awhile after that. But then there was this long pause where we hardly talked again but we say each other at AX (that's where we met) after a year anniversary, if you could call it that. He kind of ignored me, like he was busy and then we haven't talked since. However, a few days agao I recieved at text message from him. It made me really happy to be able to hear from him again. Since then we have talked to each other every night for a couple of hours kind of catching up. I think that all of this has brought back the feelings I had for him. Yes, when I first met him I instantly had a crush on him! I always had this weird and happy grin when I talked to him, thought about him, or even looked at his picture. It was kind of funny, but at the time he had a girl friend so I knew it wasn't going to work out and I accepted that. I was content talking to him as a good friend. Well now, he doesn't have a girl friend anymore and it makes me feel like I have some sort of chance with him. I feel all giggly just thinking about him and the weird smile has returned! I feel so flipping girly it's not even funny! But I do have no concern, he broke up with his girl friend three weeks ago. I asked him about it and he said he couldn't call me while he was taken. It made me kind of sad but also confused. I'm sure he talked to other girls while he was dating her, why couldn't he call me? Then I got to thinking that maybe I'm just a booty call or something. At this point, you might think I'm over reacting or over analyzing the situation, but that's what I do. That's how I function: I observe then think about it; then I observe and think about it; then I observe and think about it. It's a never ending cycle! You might suggest I talk to him about it and tell him how I feel. Well that's easier said then done. I have a hard time communicating to someone in person, or even over the phone. I just continue to observe and think, yet I can't seem to fit the part where I do something about my observing and thinking. It actually becomes frustrating. So any help, comments, or advice is appreciated on the matter! Thanks!
Oh yes, and every one comment because I love to see what you have to say. lol
Anti Ai-chan · Sun Apr 16, 2006 @ 07:01am · 6 Comments |
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It has been a good while since I've written last, so here I am updating on my life. Exciting I know! Well as far as life in general, it gives me a headache! lol nI actually have one right now but that's besides the point.
School is going good. I got accepted into the University of San Francisco which means I get to move up north this summer. I'm excited but really nervous. I'll be living in a dorm and I won't be with my mom so it's pretty nerve recking. However, I have faith that I'll survive some how! But my best friend, Uo-chan, might move in with me next year and we will have our own appartment. So I can't wait for that. She is one of the best friends I've ever had, so it will be awsome! heart
Though lately, I've felt really stressed out. In fact I haven't even been in the mood to be on Gaia (as horrible as that may sound to some of you). But that actually is bad since I co-own a guild. I don't want to dissapoint everyone and not update or post so I'm here. Yet I don't think my RPs are as good as they should be, so I'ld like to appoligize to those who RP with me.
Oh well, maybe it will just pass. But untill then, I'll just be all moody! xp No really, I'm trying guys! Just bare with me for a little while longer!
>.<
Anti Ai-chan · Sun Apr 02, 2006 @ 06:37am · 1 Comments |
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School, art and the guild! |
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Well it was all the way last year since I posted a new journal, so here I go!! xd
I have been majorly busy with school. I have to do 5 more paintings for AP art by next Tuesday which is my final. I don't understand AP Calculus at all, nor do I understand AP English, AP Psychology, or government! xp But I'll manage to pass finals next week....some how. Besides, once those are over I'm not trying for the rest of year because my grades won't matter for college anymore. So why bother after that?
Well I started role playing last November in this really cool ninja guild. But as of yesterday the guild was sold without any of it's members knowing. So Uo and I are on a quest to make our own ninja RP will the help of some of the old members. I think it's awsome that we're banning togther in hopes of RPing together again! If you're interested in our guild go here. I'ld be happy to assist you with any questions you might have, or even comments!!
Let's see...Oh yes! I'm sick!! lol I'm either sick or almost die when I post journals, weird huh? But it's nothing too bad, just a runny nose and the sneezies!! So other then my nose being red, I'm fine. But I do wish that I could stop blowing my nose sweatdrop
My art shop will be open soon again! I'm sorry anyone who's been waiting! I really am!!!!!!!!!!! I can only hope that you're not too upset with me.
Back to school.....Winter Formal is comming up! And as usual, I don't have a date, and not to be a downer or anything,but I don't believe I will be asked xp That's ok, I think I've only been asked by two people my whole high school expiriece! It would have been nice since it is my last year, to have a date for the dances but what can you do? Go stag, that's what I do!!! lol
Now here's a random question for you, the reader, to answer! I don't have a prize for the winner but it would be fun if people actually guessed!!
Ok, so what is my favorite DDRE song to dance to for the PS2?
Well untill next time!!!
>.<
Anti Ai-chan · Wed Jan 18, 2006 @ 03:51am · 6 Comments |
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Catching up on some events. |
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Well it's been a while...well not really but long enough!! Christmas passed and I got some awsome stuff! A grip load of new manga and anime, a all in 1 printer, clothes, and Gaara stuff heart I'ld say it was a good Christmas. I didn't do much but stay at home with my mom and watch the Excorsism of Emily Rose xd . But it was good none the less!
Yesterday I had one of my random dying moments again xd It was around 1 and I started getting major cramps in my stomach. So I take a pill and try to lay down. Well it starts getting worse. My cramps hurt 10x more then they had and my legs started to burn! I swear my thighs were just going to fall off! So I'm lying there in bed all in pain, then I feel the need to throw up *eww*. So weak little me has to slowly crawl (literally) to the bathroom which, thankfully, isn't too far. So I throw up and it's gross. So I call my mom on my cell phone because for some reason I left it in the bathroom. So she gets up and is all worried. She then tries to pick me up and get me back to my bed.
That didn't work. While limping back to my bed I felt nausiated (sp) and slid back to the toilet. Mind you the pain in my stomach and legs is getting worse by the minute. So after I'm done, we try again to get back to my bed. Sucess!! But it gets worse sweatdrop So I'm lying down and I have a bucket next to me, just in case. Now not only are my thighs hurting but the pain moved down to the rest of my leg! Then my arms and feet went numb, and I thew up again. At this point I can't stand up on my own and I'm light headed, kind of going in and out of conciousness.
So my mom goes to the guy living across from us (we live in an apartment) because we're pretty good friends. He comes back and he takes me down stairs to my moms car so we can go to the hospital. So we drive down there and there's about 10 people ahead of us. I sit down while my mom moves the car, and this is the miraculous part, and I feel all better. My legs are abit soar, but better none the less! lol Whenever I get sick like that I just end up getting better in about 45 mins. I'm weird like that. So I'm all better now!!!!! mrgreen
Let's see, today I opened my art shop *claps*. I am so excited about it. I already have 4 to do, plus one for a friend, plus another one for an art trade! eek I didn't realize I had that much to do!! I better get started on that in the morning!!!
So since it's already 2 am I'll get my rest and be up bright and early! Meaning sometime around 10-10:30 lol xd
Thanks for reading and have a good day!!!
>.<
Anti Ai-chan · Thu Dec 29, 2005 @ 10:14am · 3 Comments |
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Hello everyone!!!! It's Christmas time!! Can't you just feel the spirit all around you?!?!? I know I can!!! I went Christmas shopping today and spent $150, and that's not all I need to get!!! But that's ok because it's money worth spending since it's for my mom and my friends!!! I plan to get my friends on Gaia gifts too so if you're one of them......suprise!!! lol xd (Note: don't feel obligated to get me anything)
I have decided to dress up on the last day of school as an evil elf and carry all my friends presents in a large black sack!! I thought that would be fun. Anthony said he might be an evil snowman which would be awsome!!! Now we need an evil Santa, raindeer, and penguin.....and maybe a tree!!! sweatdrop I thought that would be a good idea....
If any of you people are feeling really friendly and Christmasy and would like to donate to me here is my wishlist!!!
Guitar of Demona Nitemare Scarf Demonic Pitchfork Red, black or white furniture
I thank you all in advanced and wish everyone a Merry Christmas!!!!!!
>.<
Anti Ai-chan · Tue Dec 06, 2005 @ 03:49am · 4 Comments |
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Tomarow I have school again for the first time in a week. Needless to say, I'm not looking forward to it. But atleast I'll get some of my DVDs back that I lent out over break, so that's good stare But I still don't want to get up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>.<
Anti Ai-chan · Mon Nov 28, 2005 @ 03:00am · 3 Comments |
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Avitar Art For Sure!!!!!!! |
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