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December 1st, 1865

Today is an exciting day for me! I have just been appointed as the apprentice for Evan of Hearts, one of the most renown scientists in Wonderland! To think that I, just a lowly scientist who enjoys learning the ways of man, have been granted the honor of learning the sciences from such a bright mind, it’s amazing! I will use this opportunity to prove my worth not only to my suit, but to the Hearts so that they will understand my potential and the ability of my Biokenesis.

December 6th, 1865

We have begun our first experiment together: the compression of emotions into a form of “Pill” that wonderlanders can use to not only create emotions within themselves, but perhaps even be used as a currency some day. We do this by taking the emotions out of certain people and compressing them through the use of wonderlandian abilities. I am not sure what this will be used for but.. I have an idea that I could use these compressed emotions for, but to do that I would have to acquire a different target group for this experiment.

I pray the queens above will grant me success with my work.

December 14th, 1865

I have begun my second experiment using the Emotion Pills. I am not sure what Evan has plans to use them for, but I may be able to look at another emotion that every Wonderlandian feels.

Madness

I realize this experiment may come off as insane to some people, but madness is the thing that all Wonderlandians have inside of them. In my time at the castle, and as a diamond, I’ve watched various people eventually succumb to the effects of their madness. Becoming absolutely insane and retracting into themselves in various ways.

I visited my family archives to see if there is any past research into madness, and found out that Sir Alanon of Diamonds, one of my ancestors and also a renowned scientist, had once delved into the art of madness. His experiments gave detailed graphs of the dissections into the mind of wonderlandians he did using his special ability of True-Sight, which supposedly allowed him to understand and view things from whatever point of view he wished.

I have also found warning within his notes of the power of madness, but I must persevier. If this experiment comes to fruition, then I may be able to save the lives of hundreds, maybe thousands of Wonderlandians with my research.

January 7th, 1866

Today I did my first “True Sight” experiment on an elderly wonderlandian that volunteered for my experiment. So far I’ve kept it quiet both from the eyes of the queen, and from Evan. If they began to see what I am doing, I wonder if they would lock me up like they did Alanon? I had read about him, and it was said he’s one of the maddest scientists that step foot into the castle, but I have read his notes. I have seen what he has done and it is absolutely brilliant!

Alanon described how one who does not naturally have true-sight, like me. I have been able to use my Biokenesis to help substitute for my lack of true-sight, and combined with the runes and glyphs that Alanon has left behind. My first foray into the depths of madness was simple and I dared not stay for too long lest I be grasped by the seductful grip of Madness. It was like... being held in the arms of one’s mother. The soothing quiet and the feel of being at home. It was nothing like what I expected: Chaos, Entropy, and the sense of dread.

I feel I can continue into these experiments, and my patient has agreed to allow me to continue at another date as he rests. The “True-Sight” experiments have given me so much more information than I could get through the use of just my Biokenesis. I will have to wait a while before I am able to continue the experiment, as I must focus on the Emotion Pills experiment. I must continue the “True-Sight” project at a later date.

Queens be praised for how smoothly this is going.

February 1st, 1866

Today is a sad day. My patient, Phillips Marks, has died. His family had found him in his home. He had attempted to scratch out his throat with his bare hands. During the last few experiments I had felt that he was becoming increasingly more unstable but… I had merely assumed that he had been ill.

Thankfully, his death shall not be in vain. I have stumbled upon a way to use my false “True-Sight” to peer into madness without the use of a human focus. I feel I am slowly coming closer to the answers I require. I have begun to understand how to shift the madness only slightly, curbing the excessive accumulation of madness just barely.

February 2nd, 1866

Today I attempted another step into madness, this time moving deeper into the miasma. I have begun to feel as though something is following me… As if something within the madness is watching me during my trips, whispering in my ear with words that I cannot understand. They have no meaning, they have no suggestions, but I feel that I shouldn’t listen to them. Something inside me fears for my life, but I must persevere. I feel that I am close to a true break through, so I must continue my experiments. I must!

February 17th, 1866

Something fills the castle halls today. I am not sure but… The halls feel more ominous than normal. As though a great silence has passed above the Diamond Castle, and I can’t help but feel I am to blame for this. My younger brother, Alex, has said he saw something within the halls of the castle… As though a ghost or a specter has filled these hallways. I pray for the safety of my family and those who live in the castle.

There is something in the eyes of guards, it worries me. There’s a slight glint that was not there before, something odd in the way they smile or the way they carry their strides. I requested that the queen shift guards out on a routine, and attempt to place as few guards inside the castle as possible. If something is happening to the guards than I wish not to have them near my family when they finally happen…

Queens, I am not sure how safe this experiment is anymore, but I can feel it. I have to continue with this experiment, I am almost done…

March 6th, 1866
Evan has died... I... I just can't believe it. Even as I write this note the shock still isn't sinking in. As his apprentice I have been named as the official leader of this project. Now I can use the Emotion Pills for not only for the queens project, but my own project. Now I can move without worry. I can experiment with madness without being held back by my former master or my queen!

With this I am sure I will come to results now, I am sure of it!

June 7th, 1866

As I write these notes I feel as though something is speaking in my mind. Words that slip into my thoughts, tendrils of hatred that slither through my veins. I feel sick, ill. I have even noted that my own family looks as though they are consumed by something. I have tried to speak with my mother, but she doesn’t even seem like the same person that I knew as a child anymore.

This is all my fault, even now I slowly feel myself slipping away into madness. Obsession fills my head and I cannot stop with the experiments. My younger brother, Alexander, has visited me during my experiments now, and the company is very pleasing but… Now I can see it in his eyes too. The madness which seeks to envelope the entire castle.

Queens forgive me for what I must do…

July 24th, 1867

My hands are not my own. My mind is not my mind. Something crawls within my skin and I don’t even feel like I am the same person I was one year ago. I have done so many horrible things now, and even my new wife must notice the chaos that swirls around my mind. It has been almost a year since I had locked up Alexander no… He’s not Alex anymore, he is now Chimera. A name which denotes more than it means.

This was the only choice I had in order to protect him. My hands are already stained with the blood of my family and friends. The experiments I have caused have not helped to cure Wonderland as I wished, no… It has only served to destroy all that is around me. Even now, I still feel the insanity as it fills my mind. Oh Alex, I apologize for what I have done to you now…

Queens forgive me for what I have done, I should have known… I should have foreseen this from Alanon’s notes, but I believed I was stronger. I believed I was stronger than him. My own pride is my folly, and now I must deal with the consequences.

Quintessa, my wife. I pray that my insanity may never reach you, that the madness which has settled in these halls.

January 9th, 1869

The experiments with emotional pills have gone as expected.

I have developed a method to drain the oysters absolutely dry in order to produce my emotion pills.

Project “Chimera” has gone better than expected. I have surgically combined him with the DNA of countless animals, giving him the ability to assume their forms. I have also removed of the madness that fills his mind.

These hands still feel horrid. I can still feel the tendrils of madness as they settle in my mind. Very rarely now can I gather a moment of clarity. Just barely enough time to write these last notes.

Alexander, should you find these notes. I am sorry. I am so, so sorry. It was the only thing I could do at the time in order to prevent the madness from completely consuming you. I have given you the power to fight. And I have given you the gift of clarity that I have wished for so long… Please, you must take my knowledge. Within my room are all my notes from the past years. All of my experiments. All of my knowledge. Please, prevent anyone from ever making my mistake again. You must continue on, my Chimera…

I chose that name for a reason, Chimera. It is a symbol for a new life. A new start for all in conjunction with the experiment. You are the combination of my madness, and my clarity. My love, and my passion. Protect people Alexander. You must go where I could not… I do not have much time. I cannot hold my sanity for long. This may be my last note, my last log of what I have done. My dream, my passion, my wishes I leave to you.

May the queens bless you Alex, and may you finally find peace wherever you may go. Know, that I will be watching over you with our past ancestors.

Good bye Alex.