got 43 on my mid-term in french, it's not good, and i wanna do better, so i've gotta buckle down and study more, i'm in University over 2 months and i'm alredy not happy with the way i'm progressing. I feel like an idiot for not studying more for my french, and i'm worried that i'm gonna flunk out, and i don't wanna have that happen. I don't wanna let my gf down, and i don't wanna let myself down. Les said she'd be happy as long as i did my best, and i know she'll love me regardless of the grade i got. But i'm not gonna be happy with myself because i didn't apply myself as best as i'm not going to blame the professor that owuldn't let me in to the mlc because it'd disturb her class, which is ufair, but my own Prof said that the accumulated time is only to prove that i've been going, she said she doesn't care id i do it at home or in the lab, as long as i understand it, so that's now explained to me so i know i can do this stuff at home and not worry abot accumulating time. she also said that if i use the online stuff it'll help me out, so i'm gonna do my work, stud more on French and prey to the gods that my now applying myself will do better for me in the long run.
I sent Les an e-mail asking for help, i just hope she isn't disappointed in me, i don't care if my mom or sis would be, they're the leat of my worries when it comes to my grades. But Les, she beleives in me more than anyone else, and i don't wanna let her down, she knows i can do this, hell i know i can do this... i just don't want to let her, or myself down because of my neglagence to study. I've got Psych to study now then i'm gonna meet up with Les for lunch, and hope she isn't disappointed in me for my grade.
i just wish i had more time in the mid-term to go back and finish a section i skipped to finish after... *sigh* live and learn i guess. sweatdrop
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