Yea. so people dont need to read this i really just need to vent someplace where b***h a** people cant read it that know me.
i really ******** wanna die. but i really do have a great life. a boyfriend that loves me so much and wants to marry me. he has given me a ring already and a necklace. ((all real)) so wat can i do. my mom wont get the hell off my back about everything! she will not leave me alone!! the only day that i will get to see my boyfriend matt is tomorrow and see wont let me go to the movies with him. its not like im 14 years old! im 17! and hes 18! and responsible, shes met his parents and he even trusted him to sleep over one night so my dad could take us fishing the next day! and my dad hates any guy that comes near me and he suggested that he sleep over! What the hell is wrong with this picture?!
another thing is matt is working full time in the summer and is closing every night. and so i never get to see him. plus i just got a new job so im working and it sucks. i stay up everynight for him hopeing that he'll call or text me back or go online. but he never does. so i leave. then my best friend calls and says she read his ex's lj and it said that they started talking again! i dont even get to friggin talk to him at all and hes talking to his ******** EX!!!
i feel so depressed and all i really want to do is cry and sleep and eat. i miss him so much and it hurts that other girls get to talk to him or than i do.
i was finally spending some time with him a few days ago and one of his friends and mine calls.. and its a girl. i really just wanna die, cause i know hes going away to college in 2 years and im going to be a reck and might do something stupid.
help.
-.drinking tears.-
 RikkuAlister · Tue Aug 01, 2006 @ 02:13am · 0 Comments |
