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My life & journey through MY eyes.
Hustle Harder


I still can't focus, but I'm happy to announce that I have started READING....for real this time!

While I was down at UNC, we visiting their bookstore where I purchased a Carolina Blue UNC hoodie, I also purchased a hardcover copy of James Baldwin's "Giovanni's Room". I distinctly remember picking up that book back in college and being intrigued by it...but then putting it down because I was poor sweatdrop I'm happy that I'm finally getting a chance to read it. I'm on Part 1 of Act 2 (there's three Acts with each having three different parts...) and i'm hooked rofl

I must admit that it's an interesting kee. This black, gay iconic writer decided that he wanted to tackle gay issues (in the 1950's no doubt) and did it in a very direct yet suspenseful way. The characters are very interesting, Paris is the backdrop so there's a lot of french in the book (which I have to translate often) but I am definitely interested. I believe I also have his next novel "If Beale Street Could Talk" so I'll be reading that next. This is almost reminiscent of when I was obsessed with E Lynn Harris and his works. I loved his books and his memoir What Becomes of the Brokenhearted is still one of my favorites. Reading is actually fun when you're reading interesting s**t.

Alas, I'm also reading The Art of Mental Training by D.C. Gonzales - a guide improving performance their mental fortitude, which is relevant. Honestly, like he says in the book, your performance in any aspect is 90% of the time directly connected to how you approach it mentally. I used the example of how I'm pretty introverted and reserved, especially in social settings, but I can turn it on if need be and be friendly and social and engaging.....but other times...and this happens every once in a while...I completely shut down and almost feel like I'm having an anxiety attack. I felt like that for most of the Deep Creek trip with Rob and his friends. sweatdrop

Alas, two good reads. It think it'd be fun to always be reading a novel and a non-fiction piece simultaneously. For the fiction works, i'll try to stick to iconic Black and/or LGBT authors.

Alas...one thing I'm really learning from my mental training book (although I'm just a few short chapters in) is stuff that I already knew but need to hear over and over again. Fix your attitude. Fix your mindset. Think positive. Stop comparing. I think I'll leave it at that.

Side note: 2018's motto needs to be HUSTLE HARDER. I got the job, my relationship is still in tact (for now). I have my family and friends. 2018...I need to be busy AF. Hustle harder and get the f** out there and see what's up. I need revisit this come late December when I'm outlining my goals. I have to get into UNC (Nicole ((Dir. of Brand Marketing)) said the MBA@UNC cohorts are up to almost 1,000 people burning_eyes burning_eyes burning_eyes wtfffffff), get these gains, find some new franz, stop being so sex-obsessed (which I'm not sure if it's an actual problem or just stemming from boredom), travel, get. this. money, and....get closer to figuring the f** out why I'm on this earth. And it'd be nice if I can finally make Rob love me crying

Ok, I'll stop for now. But I must admit, I'm a little in my feelings that Andrew Hermalyn (2U's EVP of University Programs and Partnerships) just made Forbes 30 under 30 list...which makes us practically the same age. It makes me wonder, what if I found a 2U-esque company coming out of college and how much of a difference it would've made. Hell, I didn't know I wanted to fully pursue marketing until ********. Three years after I graduated stressed Now I'm here and all of my colleagues are younger than me and I just feel....dumb.

But...I'm trying to change my mindset. All of this will be fine. I need to start studying, kill the GRE, pay off this damn credit card and prepare to move out of Dad's house. Don't get me wrong, I love not paying rent but I hate commuting.

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Mood: Getther there! 3nodding
Music: "Don't Say You Love Me" - Fifth Harmony from Fifth Harmony

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