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I've been depressed lately. I'm not compleatly sure why though. It might be because just a few days ago my lover said that she and I can't do anything anymore. She says it's because we aren't the ones for eachother but I think that's a load of bull. I mean, just back in May/June, she had no problems touching me, but at the end of July she said she couldn't... I don't really understand what's going on with her right now but it really makes me sad and frustrated and jelous of her boyfriend.

And note to anyone reading, she had this boyfriend before we became lovers and he's always known about it and didn't really care.

I just miss the feeling of her touch so much... She told me to move on and find some one else, but I just can't. She's the only one I want and that isn't going to change anytime soon.

Plus what I find really annoying is that I always put everything I'm doing aside for her, but she won't do the same for me... I don't know what I should do... And I'm starting to lose the will to live... I don't care if I'm starting to sound emo but it's true.