Im keeping everyone at arms length. And it's not because they are making me mad, but... just because. If I end up having to loose these people in two-three weeks, I don't want to have to deal with the s**t after it all.
I'm trying to keep myself busy, trying to keep my emotions neutral. If I sway one way, I loose it. If I act like nothing even matters- then it doesn't. I don't understand the resaoning to why I let everyone in after a while. MY life has seen better days when I didn't give a piece of my heart to every direction.
It's just the truth.
And truth is, I'm tired of dealign with the bullshit that comes with it all.
ShesThatGirlNextDoor · Mon Jan 18, 2010 @ 02:43am · 0 Comments |