I hate this...all of it. I keep looking around, trying to find my rhyme or reason but it just isn't there. I'm wasted in this world, so why stay here? I don't like who I am, I want to change. I just want to leave, I just want to feel...human? Maybe.
This life tastes like poison and it burns. My heart hurts every time I hear someone talk about their oh-so perfect relationship. I'm hopeless.
I've even begun hating the ones I love most. Though Jake is the greatest friend I could have ever asked for, I can't speak anymore. I have to almost scream for them to hear me, and then they get mad...
Is it really wrong to feel like this? I feel dirty, disgusting... I feel ugly, and I just want to feel pretty.
 XshutterflyX · Sat Apr 07, 2007 @ 03:49am · 0 Comments |
