I wish I could rid myself of them sometimes for they can get in the way of simple tasks. Then again, I guess it's like a balance of sorts...
crazypenguin
I'm losing my sanity in an ongoing battle with a tricky opponent: my mum, the one person who has taken care of me and shown me love all of my life, was recently diagnosed with mesothelioma (a cancer in the lining of the lungs caused by asbestos inhalation). She is getting weaker day by day, and none of the treatments that the doctors tried have worked. They are now trying experimental things because after a few months of testing, none of the chemotherapies which have worked in other cases have been helpful for her. Her condition is worsening; it is quite upsetting. It seems I'm not myself lately. My grades are dropping, I'm scared and sad a lot, I'm afraid to talk with people about it because it makes me cry, and I just don't know what to do. I wonder if there is anything that I can do. I'm really scared and I feel lonely sometimes. When I see all of the other people around me, living happy lives, I remember how happy mum used to be. She still smiles a lot, but it isn't the same smile; her eyes are slowly losing their sparkle of happiness. Help me.
I want to be a bird right now and fly above the clouds....to softly drift in the breeze, soaring among the treetops. Being a person is harder than it seems like it would be. Fin.
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It's okay to cry.