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Regrets
Regrets

You know how they say you should live with no regrets?
It’s true
But it’s hard to do
I think there’s only one regret
I wouldn’t want to go to heaven for
If they would forgive
For letting a man sleep with me
And getting me pregnant
Then fine
If they want to forgive me
For losing the guy I never wanted to lose
Then so be it
But I would fight
To go to hell
For my one regret
The one I’ll never forgive myself for
And the regret that I’m afraid
To ever have a child for
The one regret that kills me
Every day and every night
Killing my soul
And making me scared
Wanting to die
My one most hate filled regret
The regret of giving up my child
Even before it was born
Of having an abortion
You know how they say it’s wrong
Well it’s true
It is
The only reason to have one
Is at the risk of your life
Or that the child would already die
If it’s for anything else
NEVER DO IT
It hurts so much
Making you want to die
And it tares your soul apart
I regret it so much
I want to go to hell for it
And never to heaven
I know it was for the better
But it kills me
Never knowing if it was
A little girl or a little boy
Never seeing there face
Or kissing them
Or loving them
I hate it so much
My tears
For a child I’ll never know
~DL~
1/2/2007 3:23am






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rainbowlady1
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commentCommented on: Thu May 29, 2008 @ 09:11am
And so Jesus died a painful death so that we might live ... and the one thing people forget is that he died for all of it, past, present, future ...

And people have regrets, they have grief for the things they did ... they are truly sorry ... and the God who made all hears the anguish of the heart, and there is mercy, and grace and forgiveness ... even Jesus said "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do" even at the point of his last earthly breath. WE put ourselves in hell when even as Jesus forgives us WE condemn ourselves......
Just remember, when it is time, all the "chaff" of our lives will be burned away, leaving only the love we were built with at our core ... take comfort and know that YOU ARE LOVE ... you have done your time in hell ALREADY ... let it go, live life, and know that you are loved ... UNCONDITIONALLY.


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