The majority of my friends know the heart ache i've dealt with after breaking up with chris and there are many nights when i sit and wonder whether or not what i did was a wise decision....he made h is mistakes, but being honest he was trying to make them right....
but that's other news and not what i meant to write down here right now...
Carl died last night....
he'd known me since i was born and i grew up around him, knowing him and growing to love him like an extended uncle. He was there for me, protected me, and listened to what i had to say when i would go and talk to him.
he loved making people smile and he was the kinda person to prefer not hurting anyone.
i don't know what else to say really...
i wasn't home last night so i only heard about it this morning.
the weird thing is, though, that i haven't cried yet....i've felt a few tears, but nothing like balling my eyes out yet...
i'm upset but i think i'm still mostly in shock...
well...i'll talk to you all later,
Tootles!
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you say that i am too young to understand. i say you are too old to reason.
just a bunch of junk. i don't tend to steriotype my writing or my venting because i do just about everthing from "this" to "that"
eh.....yeah.... and i'll appologise now for my infrequent updates and times you'll see me online.
Tootles!
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You think, "Oh, it's just a joke, I know I'll see them again."
But God alive, I wish it were so, in the flesh at least.
Just know he's watching you and we're here for you when you need a shoulder.
Or, in my case, a laugh. Some people's faces aren't good at anything but laughing at, ya?
So take care, you. We need you. I need you.
And needing you means when you're ready, to get through this whole.
Love forever,
Rami