Isn't life just so funny??
I mean...here I am...content...
Why??? Well that I don't know...nope no clue
I mean I am busy as hell doing school stuff and reading a lot and looking for a job and no friends to just go over and hang with or girlfriend to be with...and i dont care...i thought about it and it doesnt bother me...I really dont know why
I guess I got a lot to worry about and a girlfriend might just add to that...lmao.
I look at me now and think wow i have to take that 3 mile bike ride to school tommarow and then 3 miles back...and...i love it!....its a work out and i love working out. Only problem with that is that i get tired and dont wanna go out job hunting....not like i can do that with all the crap i have to be reading. Though dispite my bliss there is troubles in the middle...people that dont like me being rude and i found out someone that i thought forgave me didnt lol...funny how that works out. Seeing how i expected it based off knowing the person very well it was not too shocking lol. Many of my friends seem unhappy constantly but me being me doesnt understand this very well...i mean i am happy just for the earth still being here and me still being alive...hell i'm still happy with having food to survive off of(thank you mommy!) and I am terribly gratefull for those that still love me as friends and family...i want to help my troubled friends but i get so fed up with school as it is and the bike ride is tiring that i can't say much...or much that is helpfull. But i am still happy dispite all this...i worry about these things sure...but i am happy...so why? hell...i doubt you know...i dont even know! lmao
So i look at myself and realize i have no friends really, no money, i'm constantly tired and busy, i have people that are being mean to me, and on top of that i have people i care about in distressfull times...but i am happy...i just felt like sharing my oddity at this moment...dont know why....guess the nights always make me think too much XD
Fronic · Wed Aug 30, 2006 @ 09:46am · 4 Comments |