It is simple I dont know why she hates me. Could be that every chance I got I would run away. and not even when anything bad was going on. I lied all the time. mostly because of who I am. She hates me... and when I tell the truth she doesnt listen to me. I am to old to have to struggle with this. but yet here I am struggling. I love my mother. but we are oil and water. we wont ever mix but one will always be on top. and Im not ever the one on top. My mother has her own beauty about her and she is fun. but she doesnt see what I see in her. and she attacks when she feels no one really loves her. she takes love as full out honesty not holding anything back. and I understand that but I cant deal with being treated as a child. I have two options in this situation. I could either kill myself in hopes that it will end the suffereing of me living and messing up from her. or I can run as far from her as possible but she will still hear about my failurs and such. So I choose to end it all. at midnight I will hang for my pain I have caused on my mother. maybe then she will see how I do love her. who knows. I love my mommy... good bye.
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