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i know you probably don't have the same feelings i have for you but i just want you to know this. no matter how hard i tried taking your advice after or break up so you could be happy with a girl who lived in the same place you do i still strangely found myself wanting to be with you. but the way I've acted in the past is mostly likely why you don't want to be with me..... i'm not really sure why i get all clingy need and all the rest towards you i'm not even sure why i don't like your ex i guess it might be because the simple fact no matter how many times i tried in the past it seems like you wanted her over me. i mean you did kinda dump her date me in secret dump me date her. maybe that's why i got jealous of her because you always leave me for her. i'm not really sure why i drive you crazy or bug you so much but the only thing i can think of is this.... I LOVE YOU AND NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY I CAN NEVER SHUN THESE FEELINGS. sure we may have never meet IRL but threw our Facebook chats over these past 6-7 years i feel like I've gotten very close to you. i mean i pretty much know your fave color, food etc. heck i even know all your sexual fantasies because you told me them..... but enough rambling i guess this is my good bye i wont bug you anymore with my feelings of love for you... i'll just keep them bottled up inside and try my best to fight them..... besides isn't it what you want for you to go the rest of your life knowing i no longer like you or want you? or maybe yet we should get rid of the problem. why don't i get rid of me? that way you can live happily with the other girl you like so much more than me :'(