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I was looking through my tumblr, I literally haven't used that thing in 2, possibly closer to 3 years.

My very first post was a picture of me and you.
I realized how many of those posts were about you,
and it freaks me out.

I wonder if after all of these years,
if you're the person I've been running toward,
Fighting for,
The person that I can't ever seem to let go of,
The one that I will always come back to.

Because I love you so much, and for a very long time you felt like my soulmate,
But I realize that this is not the case.

I have to do whatever I can to distance myself from this and from you.
I have to put our friendship to rest, I have to go off on my own and leave the security blanket of our relationship behind.

And that scares me, because in doing so,
I realize I may never make my way back to you.

But if I don't do this, my growth will be stunted,
And I will never become the person I need to be.

I love you so much, and this decision was incredibly hard,
But I need to remove you from my life for a while,
And grow into the person that I need to be.

Just don't lose hope,
We'll find our way back to each other some day,
If everything we have was as true as it felt four years ago.

I love you.