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There are so many things I wish I'd done differently. The kind of things I'm gonna look back on in 10 years and regret. All of it started in 5th grade. This guy asked me to a dance, you know, nuthin special. Very soon though, people got all excited. You know how it was in 5th grade. Then before I knew it, we were considered boyfriend and girlfriend. Back then, he was and ok guy, but now he's really strange. His hair is kinda long and stringy and he lets his ears show through his hair. He kind of embarrasses me a lot. People often ask me, "Is HE ur boyfriend? Really?" Sadly I confess to them the truth. Also, he's shorter than me buy a few inches. Back then it was all fun and games, but now it's all gone wrong. I don't want to be taken my entire life. I want to meet new people. I still want to be his friend because he IS a pretty nice guy, but i don't want to be his girlfriend anymore. I know this sounds pretty pathetic, but I don't have the heart to break up with him. Also, I always think he's the best I can get. But I can imagine his reaction. He would be stunned. I can tell as soon as I break up with him, he and his friends will call me a b***h, but I still wanna be friends with them. It's all gotten completely complicated. If anyone could please offer advice, I'd be so grateful. At this point, I don't know what to do.