I am hoping this is simply not absolutely mad, but I have read so many posts about the unpleasant ideas about being forced to reveal stress details to your t. I am coping with almost the other.
I have several 'troubles' that I am aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step father to an adult that I trusted being a maternal figure that later showed she had different suggestions for your connection in high-school... Then what is daily becoming more of the confidence that I've repressed very early neglect (I have always had risks but am not experiencing his and my voice in my brain which isn't pleasant change of words)... I have NEVER told details of some of this stuff. I've stated to 2 people that "anything" happened with this particular person I trusted which was the extent. I'm plagued short movie within my head of the ones from the by pictures and today these comments of what I suppose.
I'm dealing with at and also have discovered that I can't tell him SOMETHING if he doesn't ask. I have told him this and he is great at looking to ask me questions. The thing is, I may also not tell him what to ask. it is like I'm prohibited to just freely tell things-but I'm allowed to answer honestly, although I understand it might sound absolutely crazy. He has gone forward and backward about 'processing' trauma and then I think I am so calm about things going on he does not think they are and begins to believe we need to get another way. I get upset after I hear him acquire extremely depressed and talk about not addressing the trauma particularly and wish to quit hope about ever getting relief. I can't tell him that although it's like I KNOW I've to have these details out. I think he is also concerned I cannot manage working with the injury right because of my panic attacks, but I don't understand how to change some of this. He covers stress that you can and attempting to get it done with as small detail and I have read about all these new techniques to handle PTSD without detailed control, but I want it bad.
Does this make sense to ANYONE? I know I'd be VERY embaressed to say the things that I wish it isn't anything ill making me need and I would need to to... But I'm so worried we shall spend years because he thinks I am worried tiptoeing across the facts Tell About Stress and that I am seriously attempting to spill the beans. I wish I could tell him this, however it isn't allowed.
