I am hoping this is simply not completely insane, but I have read a lot of posts about the awful thoughts about needing to reveal trauma facts for your t. I am working with almost the contrary.
I have many 'troubles' that I am aware of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to a grownup that I trusted in high-school like a maternal figure that later confirmed she'd other suggestions for that connection... Then what's daily becoming more of the confidence that I've repressed very early abuse (I've always had dangers but am not hearing his and my style within my brain which isn't pleasant exchange of words)... I've NEVER told information on any one of this stuff. I have mentioned to 2 people who "something" happened with this person that was the extent and I trusted. I'm plagued short movie in my head of those I recall, by images now these sounds of what I think.
Does this seem sensible to EVERYONE? I understand I'd be REMARKABLY embaressed to convey the things I would need to and that I hope it isn't something ill building me want to... But I am so worried we shall spend years tiptoeing across the facts because he thinks I'm worried and that I am desperately attempting to spill the beans. I wish I could tell him this, but it isn't allowed.
I'm working together with at and also have discovered that I am unable to tell him ANYTHING if he does not ask. I have told him this and he's great at wanting to ask me questions. The issue is, I may also not tell him things to ask. I understand it could sound absolutely crazy, but it is much like I'm banned to simply easily tell things-but I'm I want to talk about my trauma allowed to answer honestly. He's gone backwards and forwards about 'handling' injury and then I think I am so calm about things going on he does not believe they begins to believe we need to get another way and are. I get upset after I hear him talk about not addressing the injury specifically and obtain really depressed and need to give up trust about actually getting relief. I can not tell him that although it's like I AM AWARE I have to acquire these facts out. I believe he is also worried I can't manage coping with the trauma immediately due to my anxiety attacks, but I really donot know how to transform any of this. He discusses injury that you can and looking to take action with as small detail and I have read about every one of these new techniques to handle PTSD without detailed control, but I need it bad.
