It's been nearly a week since my boyfriend Escher0624 has gone "off grid" I don't know what happened to make him shut everyone including me out. I'm not trying to make it about me. I love him so much and I miss him. I'm scared that I'm not good enough. I don't want him to leave me, these last four and a half days have been torture. I just cry on and off all day. I really hope that he loves me enough to keep being with me. I don't know what I'd do if we broke up. I'm so depressed and paranoid. I keep filling out job applications and doing other things to try to keep the dreadful thoughts from my mind but, it's so hard to do it with him constantly on my mind. I hope he comes back to me, I need him so much. He's my true love. I can't bare to lose him...
I guess it's over now. I guess I really wasn't enough as I am. It hurts so badly, I hope the pain and the hurt goes away soon. Hopefully he can be friends with me. I am not so terrible that I'd be petty about this break up. I would rather keep him in my life as a friend than not have him in my life at all. Maybe it might work out some day again, though I am not optimistic. Still, I'll love him forever.
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