Yes. I'm doing this. No. It's not the end of the world. Like I said before.
You know, I've always wondered, if I really have a true friend. Right now, I probably don't. Maybe one, but I really don't know. And my dear friends, if you're reading this, I'm just stating my opinion right now. It's about time I say part of the truth.
Sometimes, I see some of my friends as weak minded. They're so emotional. Do they want attention that badly? So, yeah, you're sad, upset, pissed. What's my part in it? Nothing. Sure, sure. I can make you feel better. And now you do. I don't know about you, but to me, it's a lie.
So, now you feel better, just after I comforted you. Now, if all you wanted was my comfort, then that problem of your's that just made you pissed off, was a lie.
And if that's true, and all you needed was my comfort, then you don't trust me enough to tell me what you need. Now, is that real friendship? I really don't think so.
These thoughts are quite complicated. I know that. In two days, when I read over this, I'll be thinking, 'Did I really type this?'
It's not like me to be so emotional. In fact, I'm not. This just had me thinking, What exactly is a friend?
I bet most people, think that a friend is someone who agrees with you.
What a big. Fat. Lie.
Agrees with you? Don't make me laugh. How do you know that they're not just saying that? How do you know, that they're not doing that, just so you'd feel better? How do you know, that they're not lying?
If a true friend, really is a friend, then they'll state the truth. If they don't agree with you, then they will say that they don't agree with you. If they really care that is.
I guess, I'm not a true friend at all. I'm so afraid, of losing friends, that I always tell lies. Sometimes, I comfort people because that's the only thing I can do. I support people, because that's what makes them happy. I guess that's something I don't do.
Agrees with you. That's the big thing. I agree with everybody. Everybody! But I really don't.
Boyfriend and girlfriends out there. If you're reading this, consider this...does your boyfriend or girlfriend really speak the truth when they say, "Yeah, you're right. You parents should do that." Now, if your parents are abusing, harrassing you for absolutely no reason whatsoever, your boyfriend or girlfriend should not be just hanging around like a dead bird on string. They should go get help. Even if you tell them not to, if they really care, they won't listen. This is when stubborness, is a good thing.
And if you're true to them, you will make an attempt to try and understand them. If you don't, you don't deserve your boyfriend or girlfriend. If they really care.
OKAY, CUT! Well, that's for you emotional thoughtful people out there. My thoughts may help you, I don't know. I don't even care if I feel that way now. I mean, really, if I told you, would you really care? Woud it stick in your mind like crazy, and never go away?
Here's how I feel...And yes, this is real. Really how I feel.
Okay, so, at school, I don't talk enough right?
Well, hey, it's not that I don't talk. It's that I can't talk.
Usually, if I don't have anything to say, I keep my trap shut. But when I do, I speak. I speak in a voice, that I make an effort to keep up.
And what happens?
I'm interrupted of course. What did you think I'd say? I giant anvil who is hanging on a cliff like Cliffhanger on Between the Lions just fell and killed me?
So, that's not a problem anymore.
What? You thought they don't interrupt me anymore? No, they do it still. I'm just saying, I just don't talk if they interrupt me. Once out of Ten times have they apologized for it too. Maybe more, I don't actually keep count. Okay, maybe I do, but hey, does that really matter right now?
Yes, these are all actions from my friends.
So, now I just let them talk away, and I listen. I really listen. I really do. I may forget, since there are more important things to remember, but some things aren't meant to be remembered, don't you agree?
So, now I'm in a quarrel with my friend. They're pissed, and I'm misunderstood. Now, these may be one of the friends that do something while quote on quote "listening" to me. Now, they don't really care. They only pick up bits of it at the end. And no, the exuse of, "Sorry I forgot" is not true. I just asked them what I said (Or use another way of showing that point.) and they pick up bits of it.
So, now they're trying to get me to listen. The problems on their side, I'm trying to clear up the misconseption. So, they're trying to talk over me and I'm trying to state my opinion. Now, I try my best not to interrupt them since I full experience of how it feels to be interrupted. And when I really do, accidentally let it slip out, you get infuriated. Yes, you ignore me, and look away. Sure, it doesn't last long. So who cares right? Wrong.
Now I'm in a quarrel with you, and they're going on about this worthless junk. It just so happens, I was speaking first. I was trying to explain from the very beginning. So, what do you do?
Interrupt of course.
Yes, your life is so much more important then mine. Yes, your opinion is so much more important then mine. Yes, your opinion, is not an opinion. It's a fact. Yes, my life is so unimportant, if I die, the world will still go round. If you die, then the world will stop and the living cycle of life shall stop in it's tracks, and everyone will perish.
Oh, you are so important.
And what am I?
Why, I don't even exist.
It's not that I don't talk.
It's that I can't.
Remember that.
And no I'm not a goth or someone who is retarted and depressed. I'm never depressed. Just when my parents are yelling about divorce, I cry. I don't cry over a mere something like this. I just don't. I'm an average kid, who just stated something that probably might get you thinking for two minutes if I'm lucky. Not even in fact. You won't remember this.
Goth? Gosh. What's it mean to be goth? I don't know anything about them. But, how do you know, they're not like everyone else? How do you know, that they just don't want attention, so they just go on being wearing black as a sacrifice for attention?
No, this doesn't apply to everyone. I was just bored...*Yawns* I'm soooo bored...Yeah...believe it or not, I was bored enough to type this. Hm...I think I'll take a nap...nah. Popsicle first. ^^ Yum. Meh favorite. Care to have some?
And no, I'm not emotionally depressed. I'm bored like crap. Yes. Crap is boring because I say it all the time, it's boring.
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