That's where you came in. For the time that I have known you, we haven't been too close, yet not too far apart. I always found comfort in talking to you. I have always wanted to help you. I wanted to be closer to you. Then it happened. Every day for a week or two straight we hung out after school. I just really enjoyed your presence. When you would leave, we would hug and not let go for at least 60 seconds. A 60 seconds I wish that could last longer every time. Then I started to notice little things about you. I really grew fond of your smile. It was cute. The two dimples at each ends made me melt. When I knew I made the smile happen, it just made me smile. We were friends. You disappeared for awhile. Almost a whole week. I was worried. I always was and will be worried about you. You did something. Something I really shouldn't speak of out loud in writing. Although, it just wanted me to help you more. I just wanted to talk to you and hold you. I wanted that hug that would last for 60 seconds, but I know I would want it to last longer. After that, you seemed to ignore me. Then again I think everyone ignores me. It had been a few weeks since you last talked to me. I guess I kind of tried to not handle it properly like I always do. It comes into winter break. You text me. I didn't have your number anymore. It surprised me that you actually wanted to exchange words with me at all. Especially for the few hours we did. Between those texts you asked me out. I didn't but yet at the same time wanted to call it a date. Now I can pretty much say it was. We made the plans to go eat at a nice little diner. One I pretty much have loved since I was little. We had small talk. Let's just say at one point you embarrassed yourself. You spilled your beverage. You said you were just worried it would get on me. I couldn't stop laughing about it. I chuckled about it for awhile until our food showed up. We ate and I kept making a mess. You kept smiling from me doing so. We were done. You paid for it all though. No one ever has wanted to randomly take me to lunch and pay for it. Let alone hang out with me. I had never been on a date till that point. I am glad in so many ways I had my first date with you. We had no idea what to do after. We only had about an hour till you had to leave. I offered to go to the antique shop on the square. So there we went. It's a lovely place with so many old things, a lot of rooms, two floors. We spent at least any hour on the second floor just talking. Exchanging words. We looked at all of the neat little things. We noticed the hour was up. I didn't want you to leave. So I got that hug we would usually have. It didn't last 60 seconds. Not even 120 seconds, but so many more seconds than both of those numbers combined. I really didn't want to let go. Then at some point, my arms were still around you, yours still around me. We were staring at each other. We kind of just smiled and then I let go and I could feel my face turning red. The thought of it is making it happen right now. I asked if you should leave. You replied no. Then we kept doing that thing with the hug and stare. Finally, at one point, I made a comment. With your arms wrapped around me and mine wrapped around you. We finally brought our lips together. We would not bring ourselves apart for at least 30 seconds. The funny thing is after all of that time, right when we kissed, somebody came upstairs. I laughed a bit and so did you. We kind of just walked away acting like that did not happen and the person did not see. You kept smiling. Which made me smile even more. We walked around a bit more. Then we replayed the whole thing again. Just without the person seeing. We both knew we had to leave soon. So we left. We both had to walk in the same direction. We both walked to where I had to go holding hands. Something I have not done in awhile. It was nice. You left me. I had that puppy love feeling. I just really liked you. Sad to say, when I see your face again, the feelings will come back. After that you didn't talk to me for days. I just had a pain in my chest and worries. You finally got ahold of me at 3 a.m. You told me how you felt. All the worries were gone. Yet, I knew there was something else. Something else that was bothering you. You told me. I was upset. I wanted to give because every time I have ever tried, it did not matter to anyone. I did give up at first. Then I tried. You didn't care. You left. You wanted her instead I guess. I will say that day is something I really never had before. It was like something in a movie. It felt like something in a movie. The thing is, it was like a movie. It was too good to be true. I knew it was the whole time.
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