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even tho u say she hates him and she doesnt want to talk to him.. ur ssstiill giving him lessons oon what girls mean and how he can get her back and telling him why she stopped talking to him.. u know its not gnna get him back on her good side... and u also know that its not gnna make her forgive u... i know ur trying to "make things right" but what u need to do is give her space and try to forget her if u still want to change .. fine but she isnt going to notice or care.. i liked the person i met when u decided u were going to wear what u want and do what u want and date who u want even tho it made u eff things up with her she shoulda known that u werent urself around her... u are romantic and funny and u dont take ppls s**t u dont love kpop ur into alot of cultural things and ur dream is to go to india i know why ur so flipp floppy and u change ur mind alot and its kinda everyones fault hers mine and ur friends if they dont like u changing ur mind then they should have stopped being asses everytime u said u didnt like something they liked .. i know u wanna change and fix everything but how much is that going to matter to her?

Posted by: xXiamgokuderaXx Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:29pm

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Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:43pm


	i know i cnt change and have her talk to me again but i can change for everyone else that im friends with now so i dont cause them the same pain... and ur right i dont love kpop i only listen to like 10 songs i like ptv and sleeping with sirens.. i enjoy disco music .. punjabi and hindi/ bollywood music .. i enjoy broadway songs.. i dont even like the flute ive always loved sax ..i love watching aladdin cuz princess jasmine is effin sexy and NOT because i love or loved jasmine.. i love cheer idc what aly says about it... dancing and singing is my passion .. i want to travel the world i dont wanna move to korea i wanna go to india.. i ******** with ppls relationships sometimes because im mad that i cant have a perfect one of my own ... i try to make it seem like im into all the same things my friends are because if im not we have nothing to talk about... i say stuff like "ihate that" and change it to"well like i hate this this and this about it but u know its not bad like i enjoy it" because if i say i hate something someone automatically makes me feel bad about it! ... i lie sometimes because everytime someone looks at my real life they say its sad and boring and theyre sorry i have to go thru it.. but this past year ive only lied about what i like!... loook theres somethings "ppl" just need to accept about me and theirs others i can change and need to change theres no hope lying anymore

Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:46pm


	im sorry... iknow how u feel about all this but i think u should let jasmine go stop thinking about her... obviously she doesnt want u as a friend or anything more and if she does theres obviously something u did thats keeping her from it

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Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:52pm


	well i tried forgetting and then while i was basically punishing myself dating mikhail .. i realized that.. it is all my fault i realized everything tht i did that i shouldnt have done and now im sorry beyond sorry there are no proper words to discribe how sorry i am.. im soo damn sorry that id devote my entire life to making her happy and my children and their children i would force them to make her children and their children happy for their entire lifes too. like yes that may be over doing it to some ppl but im just that mad at myself for how i treated her.

Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:54pm


	im sure what u did isnt that bad .. u need to stop killin urself over it and face the facts!

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Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:57pm


	no.. cuz even if its not bad .. i NEVER forget... i beat myself up over little things because whether i like it or not i have this dumb habbit of wanting to be perfect and not be like u or my mother or anyone in my family! we make mistakes and push our friends away and i wont let it happen anymore

Commented on: Tue Jun 18, 2013 @ 09:58pm


	u are perfect.. perfectly imperfect so stop trying so hard

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