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2-10-13 3:15pm


how else can i say it? i have dropped every sign to you. maybe you get the signs but you are avoiding them. i dream about us. every night. what we could be. and i know that if i force myself on you and you dont like it, dont like me, those dreams will change into something horrible. things would be awkward between us. and then those horrible dreams would become my reality. my life is more messed up than i lead on. but you are the only one who can really see that i am hurting, even when i fake a smile. you are my best friend. i cant let things get awkward between us. i wont want to lose you. please dont make me choose between what i want and what is right.