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Starwarrior2000
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So my Uncle hadn't seen me in years. Understandable, he's been to busy with his wife and kids. When I was little though I remember him the best. He would always show up at the house, watch sappy love stories with me and laugh when we knew what would happen and it did. He was my rock, he was the one i knew I could look for and he'd be there. Even after he didn't cone around a lot when I got in like 2nd grade. He'd call me on the weekends making sure my week went ok, he came around on my birthday, valentine's day, christmas, easter, all the major holidays he would make sure he saw me. I never liked his wife at all really, I knew something was wrong about her, she just seemed evil. Little kids know the true hearts of people. I remember the night it happened. His wife, the one I said was evil well she kept him off his bipolar meds and he went drinking and shot himself. The feeling when he done it was like someoen ripped my heart out. I ran to my mom and told her something was wrong with him, then the phone rang, it was his aunt telling us what had happened and my mom asked me how i knew and I told her I felt it, I felt that osmethign happened that he was hurt. His wife had us barred from seeing him cause she thought we would try making him leave her. My mom went and saw him anyways and basically almost went to jail just to see him that's why she wouldn't take me to see him. I talked to him once and he told me he loved me, that's the last time he even heard my voice until last Saturday. He didn't even recognize me until I walked up to him and said something to him. He realized it was me and hugged me until I thought he would squeeze me to death. He saw my scars on my wrist and asked me why, I told him the same reason I used to and he told me never again, that if I need him I knew he'd be there. That's when everything literally clicked, I realized that I am so much better then them and I didn't need to hide. I realized I can look at myself in the mirror and not cringe. So, no matter what anyone else someone calls me or says to me even though it may hurt I don't have to take it so harshly because I am me, I am loved, I am beautiful, I am smart, I am unique, I am perfectly imperfect and I love it! heart heart heart heart




 
 
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