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That's hilarious how the first and last entry I wrote was about Alex. That's just hilarious. Really.

I really did think I would be in love with Alex forever. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm just denying it again. But I started having my doubts almost the moment I left home for him. It wasn't things he was doing, not really. It was just that he wasn't there when I needed him for some divine reason. His phone wasn't working. He didn't wake up. His phone was dead. And then there were all the times he was coming to see me and didn't. I just gave him what he was giving me for the past three years: Bullshit.

And now I'm with someone who fought for me. Who actually fought for me, knowing what I did, knowing what I could do. I ******** him up and he still loves me. Comparing Alex's bullshit to that, which one should I pick? The answer's obvious, isn't it?

Alex...damn. Kept all those secrets from me. How do I know that he didn't just put a spell on me so I couldn't fall out of love with him? Since apparently he can do all these other spells. I just have a feeling that the past three years, my entire relationship with him was a lie. So I'm done fighting for it. He can fight for it for a change, but that doesn't mean he's gonna get me this time.

Run run run as fast as you can, you can't catch me, I'm the gingerbread man.