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9-17-12 7:26pm

today has been a very interesting day for me. it started with me waking form a beautiful dream where the love of my life was sleeping in my arms for hours without moving,except for when she whispered my name. i love her so much...more than my own life sometimes. i cant imagine not being without her. she makes me so happy. and there are times where i just want to die-and often times i try- and i call her and the sound of her voice makes me feel like i have a purpose in my life. my mother doesnt know that i feel like my life has no value and i would like to keep it that way. talking to my love is enough for me...enough for forever. i will stay with her at night sometimes and she nuzzles herself into my neck or into my stomach and fall asleep. the only thing more beautiful than her when she's asleep is when she's awake. i kiss her neck and wrap my arms around her while she sleeps and it is just so great to feel her safe,in my arms,and know that i dont have to worry about anything untill morning. i just dont understand how when i look at her i can forget all of my worry's. they just dissolve. the way she runs into my arms and mumbles "i love you" in my neck is truly utterly heart stopping. i would chase her forever,except i dont have to. if u have found love like this,please feel free to comment. but please,if u disagree, dont comment. i would rather have my mood savored at this moment......untill next time,my friends smile