when am i going to explode
i know it is going to be soon
i dont even know if im just making stuff up or if i actually have something to complain about. people have it much more worse than me
i really dont deserve anything
and by that last statement, it looks like i have a low self esteem
this is great. what a wonderful contribution to society i am.
i want to give up. but i dont want to be alone.
i still love you, and it breaks my heart to think about leaving, or anything like that. but i dont even know if you love me anymore. what's going on?!
i understand nothing. im ruining my life. i need to study for exams TOMORROW, but i cant stop thinking about you. how im not good enough. how i love you so much, but you're just making this harder.
im too afraid to ask for help. when im lonely, i just push everyone away. i think it is because that is when im at my weakest and im too scared that i'll look weak if i talk to someone. im scared that im going to bubble over and they will see the real me. they'll just walk away and i;ll be alone forever.
i cant do this anymore. its too hard
i realise that im overthinking this, and none of these problems are really issues. but i dont think anyone will understand that. i just need to man up and get over it. maybe that phrase is right. maybe i just need to suck it up.
im too sensitive and i hate what is happening.
i just want attention. im too scared to ask for it
am i lazy?
am i just too lazy to ask for love?
i dont think i am. i dont want to talk to you right now because i know you will be sad, and i will just make it worse. you'll just end up hating me
but if i dont do it then we'll just fall apart. i, at least, have to try. IM SICK OF TRYING
THAT'S ALL I EVER DO
WHY CANT SOMEONE DO SOMETHING FOR ME
it's because i dont ask for it. i dont deserve it.
everything i do is wrong
why am i even writing this
no one is going to read it. the person i wrote this about wont read it at all. im not solving anything.
BUT I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IS WRONG
i just want to stop
someone stop the world
i want to get off
im spinning too fast
it isnt working
******** this
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