Love.?~ I thought I once loved a boy named (D). We started kicking, screaming, hitting, yelling at each other. He started physically abusing me. Called me fat, whore, ugly. I never thought I deserved another man.
Then I met (C). I still didn't know what love was. We talked and talked. He seemed like just kitty love. I developed a crush on him. He started looking at other people and I got jealous. He asked me out. Started flirting with other girls. Yelled at each other. Over.
And the best experience. I met (K). Amazing guy. Always complimenting me, always a gentleman, took his time. We always flirted around, you would've thought we were a couple. Always calling each other "dear" "love" "honey" "sweetie", things like that. We always talked to each other, EVERY DAY, for about 1-2 months. Whenever it got over 2 days, I went CRAZY. And then the one time it got to 4 days, I started crying in class, because I thought he could've died. Then when it got to 5-7 days at a time, I stopped caring as much. Of course anytime I got to talk to him, I took it. Then I just stopped the crying. He was the only one who made me feel like I did deserve him. Then, I got in the wreck. I couldn't remember A THING about him. So we got to start to know each other again. Still the same amazing personality. But, he always thought that he didn't deserve a girl like me. And of course, I gave him a lecture. I still love him. It just died down a bit, then is now slowly rising. I love you bub.
Jeidodesu · Sun Mar 25, 2012 @ 04:38am · 0 Comments |