I was thinking today, "I have no friends... who can I tell all my fears to...?" Then it hit me.... I have here. A man I've cared about for seven years just left after his first visit. I already miss him. He hugged, cuddled, kissed, and loved me better than anyone else in the world could. He respected me, worried about me, protected me, and healed me when I got hurt. This man cares more about me than I ever thought he would... I always wanted him to. He was mentioned in one of my earlier journals. He's the one I didn't get engaged to. And I won't get engaged to him, till he's ready. Then I'll probably do the proposing... He'd be very happy.... He is my girlfriend, after all. But I'm scared of what loving him is going to do to what few relationships I have... My friends are extremely few and I think right now they're all disappointed with me in some way or another. I want everyone to be happy, why does it have to be so hard?
Nik_Eighteen Souls United Community Member 
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