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I'm sick of being afraid.

I just want five minutes where the world revolved around me. I'm suck of being afraid to love. I'm tired of being lonely. I hate how the only physical connection to you is this teddy bear that I sleep with.

All I was is for you to pay attention to me for more than five seconds. Just one post is not enough. It's hard to continue like this when the only way I can express myself is emotionless text.

I just want to be free. I'm too constricted by the choices I've made, and the insecurities I've built. I know you're slowly chipping away at the wall, but you aren't a wrecking ball. I have to get my brain, and put explosives and blow the ******** to the ground.

Then you can see me. You will have me. Feel who I really am.