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Hello gaia... Ha.

I'ts.. Been a long time. I went through some crazy things... Did some crazy changes... Well, I guess it's relative; The crazy aspect. This whole world has been looking pretty crazy, so I guess it's kinda just 'normal' now. But then again there isn't a normal ever, really.

... Well who cares.

It's still screamingly apparent that -good- friends outweigh friends in numbers... I don't care how many friends I have, as long as I have -at least- one good one.. And.. I do believe I've found myself a few, however many letdowns there have been along the way. But we always let down -somebody-, whether it's our self or otherwise. We just have to pick who it is we want to try our best -not- to let down...

........ I've been through things I've never been through in the past year... My dog died, whom was really my best friend I could ask for... He was always happy. And he always made it a point to spread that happiness. That's what he strove for.

... Someone like that of a brother to me is now in jail for a while... For doing some things he shouldn't have. I cannot lessen his load, and I cannot help him. The only thing I do is wallow on the sidelines as I see many things that I can't help but question since the incident.
... We're like brothers.
But there can only be one big boss.

... I quit my job... Because they treated me with a sense of almost anti-respect... For professional finish carpentry, I was being payed 10 dollars and hour... They took out taxes and healthcare... I had to drive upwards of two hours a day, and they didn't pay for gas.. The only way I was able to get by is that I'm living at home, so I didn't have many bills. But that whole thing was a joke. I'm done with them. And I don't regret it.
I'll find another job.
My legacy doesn't stop there.
In fact, that place doesn't even deserve my legacy to touch it. Hahahha..

... I've cut contact with a few of my friends because of how incredibly foolish they've become. By no means am I saying I'm better than them, nobody's better than anybody else... But they're just downright bad for me. It's sad, because I really loved they used to be..


....... My grandfather died.
... That was hard.
... He was healthy. Losing weight, keeping his cholesterol down... And with a sudden heart attack, he's gone...... I guess you never know when your time will be.
... But I think he knew that. He lived his life to the fullest. He thought I was the greatest dude, and I never could see why... I don't really like myself, but he did. He taught me that as long as you have a heart towards the people in your life, you're worth something. I miss him.

.. And the girl I love.. Well, we're okay.
Not together. But. We've come to learn that with love comes assurance. Pain and hurt always come and go, but when you love, there's a new feeling. For now, things aren't in our favor.
But we'll be okay.



.. That's kinda the highlights.
I'm sure you're totally into my life. All the critics are. Not. Haha..
I guess I just had to.. Vent. I really haven't in a while, you know?..

... I miss this.
It's good to be back. <3