About me?
I'm a wealth of contradictions; I dip and dive between what's real and what's not, and I lost what I was long ago. I'm not longer a singular person with singular beliefs; I'm someone who believes and doesn't believe. I'm someone for him, I'm someone else for her, and a little of both for them. Nobody really knows which parts are real and which are just a front, except you.
The way I feel for you and around you hasn't changed. At all.
The anger? The doubt? Nothing more than frustration, waiting to see this beautiful bud flower out into her true potential.
You can look back at my past and mention that I was probably just as attached, if not more, to my previous girlfriends. But you have to note that I was over them within 6 months.
It's been almost 2 years now.
My heart dances when I'm around you. Inspiration takes root; depression weighs so much less.
And my heart opens up, whether I like it or not. I can't help loving you. I can't stop loving you. Believe me, I've tried. But now... I think I'm losing even the choice to stop.
If.. after all this time... you see me, what I'm working to become, my potential, my ambitions... and you don't want it...
Then please, say good bye. Forever. Completely.
For my sake.
I beg you.
I love you too much to do it myself.
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