Okay, so. Today was pretty good until it got leaned towards the end of destruction of my very being.
School was alright, not really any problems, but people keep talking s**t and stuff.
Being a dude is hard, especially if you're gay, so it's not easy.
Right, back to why I'm writing in this journal.
It has been a while since I wrote in this journal; actually quite a few months, it's just I was not really interested in Gaia until now, which I reborned myself, again.
Rumours are spread around the school about my gay sexuality, and me being technically a dude, some douche bags make fun fo me just because of that.
My day went down-hill around 3 PM today, when I just finished getting out of school and was readying myself to get on the bus.
That moment I knew that just going home would be a bad idea.
I started to message my Crush; Gabriel, on Facebook and we started talking. I asked him a simple question, and he just says that he still feels awkward that I talk to him because his friends are total douchebags and talk s**t.
He takes his friends side, and I started bitching him out. Then, he says to forget about him.
I did not let go of the rope that easily, because I didn't want to fall into the pit of scorpions.
So, I sent him one final message before he logged off, and he never replied; maybe he'll reply tomorrow.
My Best-emo friend (who shall remain un-named) try to do something rather hazourdous and dangerous, luckily I snapped them out of it.
I was sad because of their thoughts, and did not want them to do this over some other person.
I turned to my best friend in the whole world; Ashley Merchant (She does not play Gaia) and she gave me some good advice that I really couldn't understand.
In a summary, I'm heart broken. Hopefully Gabriel picks the side of the one who truly cares about him; and not the side of those who are just "Friends".
That is all. Good night, Gaia.
Nodochii Community Member 
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