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Well i've been a little stressed out so I think the best way to let it go is to just write it all down and if any of you say that I spelt something wrong I'll kick your a**.

Another day goes by and its more homework after another and as I try to raise my self-esteem by being social and getting put down and its not only you Speer.
And I drain my sorrows in silence, utter silence as I talk to god about my life and what should I do as I fall into temptation after temptation I know he's with me. Another girl walks by me another friend I lose that goes to talk to her I feel like I'm being left behind and the only thing I can grab onto is my intelligence in math in science in school related stuff, and lose over and over when talking about pop culture, so I stick to the books even the I urn to socialize and with that I will again fall into temptation and fall into utter silence again and no one human I can relate to has yet to reveal himself and as passing days I fell like I live in utter silence and go scorching for laughs that relativly come from TV and you wonder why I like whose line so much and at every chance I get to be with my human friends there either with someone else or looking for some one else and as I stand there trying to be visible(and loud) to make me be heard only to go to utter silence once again......