Well I haven't written in a while. A lot of stuff has happened in the two months since I've last updated.
But basically, the biggest thing is that I sort of broke up with Allen since we were sort of dating. (His name is Nathan Allen, but we're in ROTC so I call him both Nathan and Allen, it depends on my mood) It was kind of out of the blue, but I wasn't as thoroughly upset as I was after me and Jeff broke up. After I broke up with Jeff, I was depressed and thoroughly incredibly shaken and everything. I'm still not sure if that was a good move or not. Well... I know it was but it still hurts when I talk to Jeff or when I think about all our dating memories. Even though the relationship kind of failed I still miss it.
Well Matt asked me to Prom, which is kind of exciting since I go to a school with no seniors so I got asked to a prom for a school I don't even go to! So that made my week. Matt is just a friend, but lately (after he asked me to prom) I've kind of been making a point of finding him and getting hugs. He's very supportive and I can always count on a hug without it being awkward. So we may have something starting there, but it's too early to tell.
And then there's Nathan. I think he still has feelings-- actually I'm SURE he still has feelings, but I never did. He's trying to copy Matt and win me back, but it's not going to happen. This morning Matt gave me a hug goodbye, and I got a copy of that hug from Nathan. Which doesn't work because Nathan is a scrawny stick boy and Matt... well... isn't.
Why can't boys feel the same way I do? This just complicates things so much.
The Retanator · Thu Mar 26, 2009 @ 03:43am · 0 Comments |