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it seems my cat is the only being that likes to spend time in my company
i guess he doesnt realize how annoying i am to everybody else
or he just doesnt care and is happy to get attention. scream

i dont know if you noticed the title of my journal changed more than once this year.
it used to be boring life, than it was changed to beautiful life in the span where everything was going smoothly and i was happy most of the time, than when that didnt suit i went to scraps of Alexiel, because it is more general and is not so specific that i would have to change it everytime my world shifts. xp

to be perfectly honest i would be surprised if anybody actually reads this, i mean thats how much attention i get lately. my journal doesnt get read. nobody bothers to go out of thier way to spend time with me and is always making excuses not to hang out with me, while i am always going out of my way just to have someone to talk to. this is all i get. this is all i can talk to. there is nobody else around. i dont live in a big house full of people and the one person i do live with is here when im gone and gone when i am here so... cant talk to them either. my life really sucks.
i plan on getting my rats tommorow xd im really excited about that. nobody to share the excitement with. really sucks. hurts a little. i have to eat by myself. i dont like eating by myself. in fact i never actually ate a meal by myself until today. never in my life until today. neutral

is there something wrong with me that i dont see that nobody wants to spend time with me. do i complain to much? i really hate complaining and if i do it i dont realize it. i understand that this ^ is considered complaining, but you know.. i have to let it out somehow and i would rather type it then do it vocally cause at least typing it you dont have to read it if you dont want to. if its vocal and you are in the area then you would have to hear it. i wouldnt want to do that to you. i hate it when people complain. so i do my best not to. surprised

anyways... i was just lonely. rolleyes
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