its funny cause my sister asked me not to long ago how many times ive been in love with someone. it made me really have to stop and think about it. i love so many ppl, i have so much love to give but being IN love with someone it something total different. as i sat and thought about it, there really where only two different ppl that i truly would have done anything for.
kevin, my now ex but still really good friend. we still go to each other with our problems wether its about relationships family or just life. hell always hold a spot in my heart. it was fun getting to see a new place and really see how it is living with someone (like boy and girl together) something different for sure but nothing beats waking up the the someone you love so much morning after morning and falling asleep by thier side, arms wrapped around em. the best feelign in the word imo.
there was one other person, funny story kinda, i never met him but fell head over heels for him. he seemed to get me better then anyone i have ever met. i never met anyone like him then and to this day. i still compair the ppl i meet to standerds i some what set to shadow from him. he was perfect in my eyes. he had the most gorgous eyes and hair to die for. i still listen to a CD he made for me a long time ago from time to time. had one of the beats he made set as my ring tone xD
i wonder if i was so childish then and greedy or so mixed up in my own lil world to miss something that made it all turn around. i wish i could have changed it, no one had ment more to me at the time. and probly sad but still think about him from time to time. i guess he was the first person i really did love... as stupid as it sounds.
he was the reason when i started dating kevin to say ******** that to holding back! if you want it go for it!!! i kept pushing back my chance to get loser to the first that i missed out. i wasnt about to do the same thing to the next guy. so i up and moved across the country. i never regret anything i did with kevin besides not pulling him away from a stupid vidio game sooner. the damn thing became his ******** life...
(just out of boredem my short(er) hair and not a fro! though i have one taken the next day with a fro haha >____< i love my cruly hair some timed)
