Just...write it out.
Everytime I see him with her my stomach churns like butter; it feels like my insides freeze over and I find it hard to breathe. No, it's not because of my asthma, but it feels like it. Each and every time he holds her it makes me want to cry, although I hold it in so he won't see. It's enough to kill a girl, it really is.
I just wish he would notice me like he used to. It's as if I don't exist to him anymore, like I'm nothing and she's everything I'm not, which pretty much makes her everything. It's as if she's his world now, and I'm no longer there. I hate this feeling. I wish it would burn in the pits of hell, but I know very well that it isn't going away any time soon, not unless he holds me one more time.
I also just happen to know that he won't do it again.
Not by a long shot.
When I speak, he looks at her, ignoring my entire presence. I wish I could just tell him how I feel, how much what he does hurts me, but like every other boy, he would think I'm stupid and just being ignorant and selfish. I don't think it's selfish thinking when someone you love is being ripped from your life, and people treat it as if it were just your ice cream melting in the sun. "You can get a new one," they say, "There's more out there." Well, they just happen to be a little unaccurate.
There are plenty more people out there, just not for me.
No, he's the only one I want, the only one I care about. He's the only one who makes my heart beat a mile a minute every time I think of him. Whenever I'm scared, he's the first one I think of, but all he has on his mind is her.
It's as painful to me as getting my heart ripped from my chest.
Totally cliche, right?
It may be cliche, but it's nothing but true.
I just wish this pain in my chest would cease. It's painful, to be rather blunt, but it's the truth. His voice rings in my ears, and I feel like I'm drowing, my chest aches and I have trouble breathing. He has no idea the effect he has on me, and I really don't think he ever will. Well, not unless Daniella or Chelsea tell him about it, but they're more dependable than that. Even so, I wish they would. I wish he would find out about my feelings for him, even if they may never be returned.
If he knew, he might leave her alone.
Well, maybe not.
He is a boy, after all.
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