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	Ether Pilot's Rantings
	Ether Pilot's Rantings


I've been lying awake at night I've been hoping that I'm alright I've been winding myself too tight Wondering if I will sleep tonight Never thought things would get like this Always hoping that they'd work out Still ingesting the wrong amount Now I seem to be filled with doubt I cannot stop this ride I'm growing cold inside I shouldn't let it slide Will sickness be mine This should not be my weight to bear Go on acting like I don't care Stop this high-I wouldn't dare I have earned and deserve my share Things like this happen every day While I'm in there I feel okay But you say I should get away Let me go just for one more day I've got to medicate myself, I'm not concerned about my health It covers up what I've been dealt, It seems the only way I've got to medicate myself, It's been the only thing that helped Must cover up what I have felt, it seems the only way Sickness is mine, sickness is mine, sickness is mine when this began I had nothing to say and I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me I was confused and I let it all out to find/that I'm not the only person with these things in mind inside of me but all the vacancy the words revealed is the only real thing that I've got left to feel nothing to lose just stuck/hollow and alone and the fault is my own and the fault is my own I wanna heal I wanna feel what I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long [erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along somewhere I belong and I've got nothing to say I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face I was confused looking everywhere/only to find that it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind so what am I what do I have but negativity 'cause I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me nothing to lose nothing to gain/hollow and alone and the fault is my own the fault is my own I wanna heal I wanna feel what I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long [erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real I wanna find something I've wanted all along somewhere I belong I will never know myself until I do this on my own and I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be anything 'til I break away from me and I will break away I'll find myself today I wanna heal I wanna feel what I thought was never real I want to let go of the pain I've held so long [erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real I want to find something I've wanted all along somewhere I belong I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong.... Fear in me so deep It gets the best of me In the fear I fall Here it comes face to face with me Here I stand Hold back so no one can see I feel these wounds Step down ... Step down ... Step Am I breaking Can I break away Push me away Make me fall Just to see Another side of me Push me away You can't see What I see The other side of me Fall back on me I'll be the strength I need To save me now Just come face to face with me Stay in place you'll be The first to see Me heal these wounds Step down... step down .. step No one can see Everything on the otherside of me I walk I crawl Losing everyting and waiting for a downfall No one can see Anything one the otherside of me I walk I crawl Losing everything on the downfall You're the one who You're the one who steals the life from I'm the one who feels the falling I believe you're nothing but a problem Everything is so fake You're just a ****** sight to see And time will block the vision Life with you is so vague It's like I'm living in a dream I have wondered why this always happens Everything just falls away Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten It's so close but it's so far away You're the one who You're in disbelief of what you Thought you could achieve or try to Once I thought this life was never ending Must've been my mistake You're just a **** accident Offending yet amusing I should have known that you And your intensions weren't for me You're the one who fed the violence I'm the one who broke the silence I will sew the hole you left inside me Leaving you in the past I will release Ethermus Prime** · Tue Mar 04, 2008 @ 12:50pm · 0 Comments


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