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I've just been asked to prom. By HIM. Shocker ain't it? It totally shocked me. Especially since I told him to ******** off yesterday. Yeah. That's right.
I've been feeling unappreciated by all my friends lately--its seems they are with me because of what I can do for them, rather then just because they like me. He always talks nothing of homeworks, and seems to deal with others more then me.
I found out while doing Winter Formal tickets, that he was going with my "arch-nemesis." Needless to say, a million things ran through my head. Like, "what a b***h, she just wants him because he's my friend, and because he's never shown an interest in her." Which of course is self righteous and a bit stuck on myself. Alsok, "she's a whore, is he just looking to get laid? I thought better of him then that", "will he drink and get into drugs like she is" and then the most painful to me "what if he really likes her?" So I got all pissed and started ignoring him.
Yesterday he kept IMing me. I didn't have a clue what he wanted, but I was determined to ignore him. Finally it got so annoying that I answered him. It was unsurprisingly about some homework s**t. I told him to ******** off, and that I wasn't his or anyone else's homework b***h.
I felt bad about it all day, and finally asked another friend what was up with him and the arch-nemesis. She said nothing, just that arch-nemesis was wanting to go with him to be amused, and no one else wanted to go with her. She wanted to know why I asked, and I told her that I was A) worried about him, and her influence, because I know he has a tenancy to give in, and B) angry because I just can't tell if he wants to be my friend for real or not. She told me to just talk with him about it.
So...I IM'ed him. Yes, that's how pathetic I am. I had to apologize to him over IM. I told him I was sorry I was such a b***h, and begged forgiveness. He of course forgave me, and then asked what it was he did. I didn't really tell him, mostly avoided it. But I did bring up the arch-nemesis in a round about way and asked what the deal was. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. He just said that she wanted to go, and he was too distracted to really say yes or no, and said whatever. Which she took as yes. So now their going. I tried to wind down the conversation then, but he just had to pop in and ask me to prom. eek Most random timing ever, considering I was just horrible to him. But I'm pleased nonetheless. He said he had been considering it for some time. So yeah. We're going, supposing my mother approves. But I'll give this thing some time to blow over before I tell her we're going. She still thinks I'm mad at him. I'll find a nicer way to let her know I'm not then, the whole "I apologized to him because I told him to ******** off".
I'm trying so hard not to read too much into this, or to mess it up. Wish me luck. I need it.
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Our conversation.
*this is after me apologizing for our argument*
Me:Well...now all is well again. At least until one of us pisses the other off again.
*pause*
Me: I 'tis sorry I overreacted.
Him: Its ok.
Him: so...do you want to go to prom? whenever it is.
Me: *tis shocked*
Me: Don't feel obligated to ask just because I was angry at you.
Him: i've been thinking about it for a while
Me: Really?
Him: Yeah
Me: Well if you'd like to that'd be nice.
Him: ok
Me: lol
Me: Has the world ended?
Him: lol
Him: i'm still walking
Me:haha
Him: i don't think it has
Me: You sure?
Him: Postitive.
Me: Ok then.
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