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I thought that I was in love with Lasey, she was so wonderful. Hour-glass body, brown hair that came a little past her shoulders, and her eyes, a dark passionate brown. I loved her, a lot. But I would see guys eye her, and I would notice that I never did the same, is that why she wanted to date me? Me, tall, lanky, short brown hair, with gray eyes? I looked dead. I never even thought of being intimate with her. But why was I with her?I think she deserves more, but does she love me? I don't know, but I have noticed someone, Jake, my best friend, he looks....different. I can't describe it. He is tall, but still shorter than me, dyed black with orange highlights, and these really cool crystal blue eyes, which I have noticed turned green sometimes, an icy chilly green. What is it about him that makes me want to stare....?



~Strange~

This morning, Lasey wasn't in school and didn't call me. I know I shouldn't freak out, but I am. What if something happened to her, to us?

I later found out that she wasn't feeling good and needed a lot of rest. No big deal I won't freak out...

OHMIGOD, WHERE IS SHE, I FEEL SO ALONE RIGHT NOW!

Okay, just breathe, probably just the flu, better get back to my Trig test.

God am I scared for her...Here comes Jake
"Hey Trey! Hows your girly girl doing?"

"She's sick man."

"Ouch man. What does she have? Mono?"

I always liked how he could talk to me like no other guy could. But today his eyes kinda beckoned for something. They seemed lonely themselves, here I was, girlfriend, family, friends, feeling alone, when I think about it, I am the only thing Jake has. God was I selfish. His family pretty much hates him, but he won't tell me why.

"I...I don't know...want to hangout tonight?" What was I saying? I was planing on going to Lasey, but I guess she can wait. Strange, do I always put her off like this? Seems so...God I'm horrible....

~At my House~

He arrived in a black Breaking Benjamin T-Shirt and plaid pajama bottoms. I myself was in a blue and pink Boys Like Girls T-Shirt with blue "Born to be Bad" Stewey bottoms. You guessed it, movie night!

We both were into comedies, so we were going to watch as many as we could, starting with The Ballad of Ricky Bobby. We both heard it was good but never saw it. So we popped it in.
It was hilarious! There never was a dull moment, I completely forgot about Lasey, but once I did think about her, I got kind of depressed,which Jake saw immediately.

"Trey, you thinking about her again?"

"Yeah, I feel bad that I'm here with you and she is sick in bed"

"Oh come on dude, if she cared for you, she would want you to have a good time with anyone, even another guy."

I was so lucky to have him. The most weird thing happened in the movie, the two guys were kissing, and I couldn't look away,but I did and I looked at Jake. His eyes were very different tonight, even in the dark. They seemed yellow.

"Thanks dude..say...How come you never have had a girl? I mean to me," I started to blush, "your attractive, funny, and well behaved, I can-"

He cut me off, with his own lips. I think I know why now...


~Wow...um..okay?~

Tobe honest, he was a good kisser, did he practice? With what? A pillow? I don't know, but as our mouths became one, I didn't turn away. In fact, Istarted to hold him in my arms, absorbing his weight. Absorbing him.

He started to cry on my should, why? Did my breath stink or something? Or was there more to him than I saw.

"Jake, whats wrong?"

"I've just always wanted this day to come. I saw how you would look at me more than Lasey, which sent the message to me. I thought maybe you would hate me, and run away if I tried anything, but once you said those caring words, I melted and here I am, in your arms, like I've dreamt all these years. I love you Trey..."

...What? What was I supposed to say to that? "Trey, your my best friend, probably the only guy I could trust, I never knew why I did look at you, I never even thought that it would be homosexuality, but thats the only thing that seems to make any sense now. But right now, what am I going to do with Lasey, just leave her? She is special to me, and so are you. I don't know what I should do...."

Jake looked into my dead gray eyes and I stared back. They were yellow tonight, thats so weird, tonight is weird, or maybe its just...different.

~We held each other~

This entire night is making my head hurt. First, my girlfriend is sick, I kissed my best friend, I love him, and now I'm a homo. Damn is this confusing. How am I going to tell my parents?

Stop, I should just take this one step at a time.

"Trey, calm down. Everything will work out. Like I said, if Lasey did care about you, she wouldn't care if your having fun with another dude." He let out a short chuckle.

I myself couldn't help but give him a quick punch and laugh. I forgot he could be such an a** and be my best friend at the same time. God do I love him.


~I saw her~

It was awkward, kissing Jake, seeing her the next morning. She was still asleep as her mom let me in. She still looked almost perfect in her canopy bed. I brushed her cheek with my hand, her eyes opened slowly and she stared at me with those chocolate eyes. Perfection in one being.

"Trey? What are you doing here? I'm sick."

"I wanted to see you. Isn't that enough?"

"No! You can't get what I have, get out!"

"But I can help, I took a medical cla-" She threw her pillow at me! Sure, THATS not contaminated!

She went crazy! She started to punch me here and there, yelling to get out and that I was trying to rape her. I tried to stop her, I did, but she was stronger. Damn it, why did she have to take boxing as her fitness class! Her mom came up and tried to calm her daughter down. Eventually, Lasey was back in her bed crying and cursing both me and her own mother. Her mother was a mess, her hair was in a pony tail, but now it was all scattered about her hair. She asked me if I wanted some tea or coffee.

"No thanks, that stuff isn't good for you." We both laughed and looked at my lanky body. "Whats wrong with her anyway?"

"It's that time of month. She is a violent bleeder." We laughed some more, and I gave in and had a cup of coffee. Ew.

~Back home~

I thought about calling Lasey, but Jake was waiting for me in my room.

"What are you doing here Jake?"

"The parents told me to go out and not be a queer."

"...Are they the exact words they told you.

He nodded. "Its in writing. 'Go out, don't be queer, or don't come home.' About the same as the rest. You okay?"

I was in shock. I think I knew why his parents hated him. I forgot they were Catholic. "I...I'm so sorry. I had no idea that they felt this wa-" He cut me off...again...

~This time~

The kiss left me light headed. Wow. Totally AMAZING. This was nothing like...what was her name again....I don't care, I only care about now. I noticed that when we were both left trying to get some air in our lungs, he was blushing. Him? Blushing? That was rich! I wonder if I was...wait a mintue...something was wrong. Something wet fell on my hand. I looked at Jake, and he was crying. s**t...

I wiped his tears away and held him. Nothing felt like this before. I felt like a had a perpose. To protect someone. From hate, night, and sorrow.

"Jake, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"

Trey, I'm not sad. Not one bit. God made me the way I am, and he loves the fact that we are both in each others lives. That is the beauty of him."

I never heard him talk like this. Sweet, but powerful words lingered in my head. I did the only thing that came to mind.

"I love you."

"I love you too Trey."


We basically stayed there, him in my arms, for about 2 hours, til he had to go home. He gave me a long good night kiss. I realized I had to talk to someone about this. But who? I had no siblings to trust and everyone on the swim team would probably look down on me if I told them I was gay now. Damn was this all a mess. All it took was 2 days...is that all its been. 2 long days.

I layed down on my bed. Something was different about it. What was it. I got up to inspect more closely. It hit me as I lifted my pillow to my face. It smelled like Jake. A heavanly mush that left me dizzy. I almost fell right onto my bed. Can you say clutz? It's been a long day, I needed a shower. No I didn't do anything badin there. But I did think about a lot of things. Lasey (now I remember her name), Jake, being gay, not to mention I just noticed Jakes eyes again.

~In my Bed~

I thought about Jake more. Those eyes. They were definatly a sadistic yellow tonight. Hmm...

I faded into the darkness of slumber.

~No...~

I didn't die. But I did wake up to a surprise.

~Awake~

I awoke in a full blast panting and a almost crimson blush on my face. What just happened? Where was I? Where is he? Is he in danger? Something feels wrong... Very wrong...

"Trey..." a darkened figure said to me. I didn't panic...what? Why wasn't I? A guy is in my room..and is on top of me....does this scream rape? "Its only me." Yeah, this was rape alright. A Jake Rape.

"Jake, its...3 in the morning. I have to get up at 5."

"Its Sunday. Remember?"

"Really?....s**t... Why are you here?"

"I wanted to be with you."

"Couldn't this wait until after I got some sleep?"

"Um...Let me think about this, Nope!" Helockedhislips ontomine. Who could I kid, I kissed back, but I was still very tired so I pulled my covers over my head and tried to get comfortable with a135 lb body 1ontop of me.

"Hey, I'm still here Trey"

"And I'm still tired, can I please go back to sleep and try to get things straight in my head..."

"Okay, but I want to hold you while you sleep"

He put his arm around me and I went back to sleep.

~Why~

I woke up feeling a lot better. But Jake wasn't there. It was already...2:34 P.M....I had to go see Lasey.

I arrived at her house, this time was a lot worse. Her mom opened the door, she looked happy at first, but all of a sudden she looked as if she would just leap and choke me to death. I kind of wished she woulda fter out little "conversation".

"What do you want Trey?"

"Um...Is Lasey feeling any better?"

"Oh she's just fine, except the fact that your here now." She gave me a smirk.

"Could I go...wait what?"

"What, you couldn't hear me you little perv?"

"Perv?"

"What do you want? Do you want to ******** my little girl again?"

"Again?! Um, I've never done anything to her. Or even thought about it!"

"Thats not what she told me, or her test results!"

"Test results?"

"I guess you don't know what a condom is do you? Well you ******** up and made my girl into a little slut."

"What are you talking about?" I was getting kinda pissed by now.

"She's pregnant you ******** dip s**t!"

"...What?"

~Betryaed~

In a matterof days, my world has been turned upside down. I'm gay, I love 2 people, one of them is pregnant....and a girl.
Well, Lasey's mom pretty much threw me out in the middle of the road while I was dazed withthe information that needed to sink in first, so I guess I'm over with Lasey, all feelings for herare gone. I needed Jake, now.

~My Turn~
Jake never did live far from me. But he did live on the 2nd floor. Crap. We lived in row homes, right on the border of the bad part of town. Maybe I'm light enough to climb the ivy that is growing on the side. Only one way to find out. I tugged on a handful of ivy in my hand that were clinging to the old bricks, it seemed stable enough. First foot, it held. Noice. Second foot? I am now airborne. After climbing for only 5 seconds, do I remember that I'm afraid of heights. I push on, carefully placing my limbs where they need tobe to support my weight. Jakes window was coming up, I would see hi-'SHIIIIIIIIIIITTTT!"

I fell, simple. It felt like forever before I felt the hard earth take my weight. I don'treally remember anything after that. I probably cracked my head open. Ewww. WhatI do remember is waking up in Jakesroom, feeling really sweatt for some reason.

I opened my eyes to see Jake hovering over my body, kissing my neck and crying. All my years of knowing him, I have never seen him cry so much. I was about to let him know when I tasted something funny in my mouth. A weird iron and salt taste, and yet I wanted more of it. What was it? Why was its so dark here too?

"Jake? Why are you crying?" Forgetting that I fell.

"Trace?!" O_O <-- His exact face, even in the dark

"Whats wrong, did something happen?" I started to feel dizzy all of a sudden.


His face started to crunch up, as if he were mad all of a sudden. "Jake? What did I do, I'm so sorr-" AGAIN?! Why dose he always interupt things with those damn perfet lips of his. Humph!

~Say huh wha?!~

When he broke our contact, he went back to my neck and licked where he was kissing me. It felt so amzing, oh my god, let me tell you!

"Trey?"

"What is it Jake?"

"You need to know something..."

"What Jake, stop making it seem like our life is like a soap opera and just tell me flat out"

"...Um, just look and you'll see"

What was he talking about? He was so confusing sometimes, my head was throbing. He started to open his mouth when suddenly, my insides were on fire. I clutched my stomach and wanted to hurl. I started to cry and scream out for Jake. I was shuting my eyes so tight, that I had to force myself to open them to see Jake before I blacked out. The last image I had was him, smiling, with blood on his canines.

~I never guessed~

What happened that night? I remember, nothing...Everything is a blur, where am I? Who am I? Why does it feel as if my entire body had fallen from a second story window? I reach up to move some hair out of my eyes,but there are stitches there, and a wave of pain rippled trough my beaten head. Ow.

I forced my eyes open, no use. Either I was blind, I was too tired to open them, or it was pitch black in the room.

Then there was a sudden burst of light. And once again, pain.
God this was getting old real fast.

I shut my eyes so tight that I thought that I would probably cry soon. The lights went out again and now I knew I was blind for a while.

Just then the most beautiful smell filled my lungs. It was dark, seductive, and I wanted it, now. Something touched my lips. Liquid? I tasted it, and my heart skipped a beat. It was the best thing I have ever drankded ever. (Yes, that is my word!) Something forced my mouth open and more of the liquid entered my mouth. I almost screamed in pleasure. I started to glug it down and never wanted to stop. The taste itself was sweet and filled me with this feeling of new life with each drop.

I stopped a minute to clear my head. I opened my eyes and saw Jake infront of me. I was in his room, on his bed. So many things still needed to be solved but all I could think of was that sweet nectar I wanted so bad.

"Jake, what was that stuff? I want some, now!"

"Just a second Trey, your right I just need to blurt this out. Your dead..."

"Say huh wha? How can that be pos-"

"I killed you. Technically."

"How am I dead, I'm with you. I'm more alive then ever in my life."

"Lets just say your heart dosen't beat anymore."

"How can you say that, look feel, my heart be-" What? Where was that thump thump?

"Welcome to my life now."

"What happened?"

"I told you, I killed you, sorta. Lets say your a vampire now, hehe." He moved some of his hair out of his face and I could see that he did in fact have fangs! Coolies. And his eyes seemed to glow. A seductive yellow.

"Okay then...what now?" I said with my new smile lined with elongated canines.





Yeah I gave up on this forever ago. Wrote this when the whole "Vampire age" started >.>

Never again, I promise...maybe