I haven't been able to see my mom for about 2 weeks now but she's still sending me those lame fowarded e-mails so I know she's doing ok. I've been looking for a job and getting college stuff all figured out so my hands are full with a lot.
I moved out of my parents' house last October on very bad terms with my dad and I went about 9 months before seeing my parents again. (My dad is very controlling which led to a lot of problems between him and I and it wasn't possible to see my mom without seeing my dad so unfortunately I almost went a year without seeing her. sad ) I went over to my parents' house two weekends ago and spent about 5 or so hours there. Most of it was spent talking with my dad and trying to come to some sort of resolution, but I also got to see my mom. She has lost almost all of her hair now and is very self-conscious of it. She has this little tuft right on the top of her head and I think she looks so cute but she doesn't think so. I also asked her if she wanted me to cut off all my hair so we could be bald buddies together but she said no. Oh well.
I don't really have an update of how she's doing or anything. It seems, though, that her tumor markers will be really low for awhile and then sky rocket and we all kind of hold our breath, and then they lower again. I have no idea what to expect to hear each time I talk to her. All I can do is to keep hoping and make sure I don't let too much time pass between my visiting her because I won't want to regret it later. I know that no matter what happens between now and her departure I will feel guilty about it. I can't really explain why but I also don't want to try right now. I've got some job searching to do and some food to eat so maybe I'll talk about that next time.
Thank you for reading.
For My Mom · Fri Nov 09, 2007 @ 06:11pm · 0 Comments |