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<img src="http://img237.exs.cx/img237/3923/avatar8io.jpg" align=right> [Mood| blah...]
[Music| "The Bondage Song" by London After Midnight]
<center> I am thunder I am rain I am pleasure I am pain
Only in darkness can there be light tell me angel have you prayed tonight?
In the dark I know you all so well beauty from Heaven wrapped 'round souls from Hell so take a drink from me my sacrifice to thee damned fallen angels, always blessed with me.
--- "Claire's Horrors" By London After Midnight</center>
My, dear journal, it has been awhile since the last time I made an actual post here. 3nodding I shall attempt to rectify that a tad. Yet don't expect anything extravagant... I'm wired on meds at the moment: mad d:
On a side note, I seem to have hit a jackpot with my most recent piece on deviant. I think it's my best piece yet X_X... never thought it would be as good as it is now. I was honestly just screwing around at first.
Link for the curious ---& Four Moons of Miseria Gawd I luff making landscape xd ...
&imsert real entry now xd &
It seems like only yesterday that I first sat down in that empty desk in the back of the class on my first day of junior year. Looking back I wonder where the days went, it all happened so fast. I don't even remember my junior year... quite reasonable, considering I spent most of my junior year in the hospital sweatdrop . Good thing though, I am finally beginning to get better. A factor in which I have one person to thank, Donald (haha, didn't see that one coming, now did ya love heart ). He has always been there, even when I wasn't worthy of his help. I admit, I tend to be quite bitchy at time... and lately have been more so then ever. Stress to blame.
It's no secret that I tend to act happier then I really am, I guess, you can say that it's my poker face. I have been extremely stressed lately. Between my brother being shipped out, switching school, and having to repeat the 11th grade due to sickness, going to Italy, and family problems... I am honestly about to burst at me seams. I want to simple scream... a scream not of words, but pure noise and utter frustration.
Most people would find going to Italy for the summer awesome, but I don't. Sure I want to go and visit my family, that I haven't seen in ages ... but the fact that when I return, the family that I have here will no longer be near is killing me. They aren't even gone yet, and I already miss them. I'll die without my little Christopher, Natasha, and Alex. I know I joke about being an aunt at so young, but I really do love it. They are moving to North Carolina, due to the military and it's a known fact that I probably wont see them in a very, very long time. Plane tickets cost too damn much. In fact the only way we're getting to Italy is via a military hop &&. We aren't poor, yet nor do we have over 9k to spend on plane tickets when ever we please.
As for school, the fact that I will have to repeat doesn't bug me, it's just the fact that I am tired of being sick, and missing out on everything. I may sound really dorky when I say this but... I actually ENJOY school, and even plan to be a History professor xd .
Bah, I can't continue this rant any more. It's making my own head hurt. So I shall end this now with a simple, Ciao.
Fall From Grace · Thu May 26, 2005 @ 01:15pm · 2 Comments |
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