Out of nowhere I start crying whenever I hear the song 'When you're gone' by Avril Lavigne. I don't know why and I don't know who keeps popping into my head over again and again! I don't usually cry... but only because I make myself keep them in as much as possible. I hate it when I cry. I'm the kind of girl who... is well, who doesn't do things because of a little thing called pride. I'm too proud to cry or to scream or to even think of sadness. But lately, that's all I've been doing. Especially when I'm asleep. I share a room with my brother Josh, (DAMN IT ALL! I WANT MY ROOM BACK!) and almost every night I wake up crying or even screaming (yelping is more like it.) and I think... I'm just having bad dreams but nothing is going on in my head at night! (Not even in the daytime.) The only thing I see is someone, a man I think, walking away from me. As if he's trying to get away. Now all I want to know is who the hell he is and why he's popping in my head! But all I know in my heart is... that I hate him. I know that when I see his face my heart will feel like stone and I'll want to kill him. I don't know who he is so of course this is scaring the crap out of me!! I felt like writing this out right now 'cuz I'm crying at the moment., but thanks for reading. You're a good friend.
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2. Pride's not a bad thing, but neither is crying. As for the dreams...I can't help explain them, but calm down, remember they're just that, dreams. Not reality.
3. I learned that I can only listen to When You're Gone when I'm prepared to turn into an emotional wreck. It's a good song though.
4. I realize this comment doesn't help very much, I'm barely awake and exhausted from crying and screaming and falling and gah...but I will force myself to focus if you need anything, okay chica?
5. Nah, you're a better friend than me, by a lot. Thanks for everything and always being there when I needed to whine/complain/cry/rant/pout for a while, and remember I'm always here when you need to do the same.
Luv ya forever chica,
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