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Well this last little while has been pretty good for me. I'm slowly getting out of my hermit status and doing things with the people I love. Leif has been coming over more, and we've been doing great. Heather, Brandon, and Megan have been making a solid effort, so I'm looking to be less hermity. Yes I'm making up words now.

I guess I should explain who the people I mentioned are. Leif is probably my closet friend. He and I have been through alot together. Sure we've fought like prissy little girls, and we happen to push eachothers buttons more than we'll admit but like most guys, we'll jsut buy eachother a drink and get on with it. As for you the gaian reader Leif is known as Leify on Gaia and has starred in a comic or two. I'm sure if you look hard enough you'll find something on him.

Heather and Brandon have known me for going on 16 years. They have seen me at my best, my worst, and my emo phases. Those two are people I will always have in my life aslong as the three of us are living. I remember laying in bed with a pneumonia in one lung, bronchitis in the other, strep-throat, and mono all at the same time. Every other day atleast they would come and sit with me. Hold my hand. Give me hope that I would get better. You can't find better people like that even if you look.

Now Megan and I have quite an interesting relationship. We have no relation, we're jsut friends. But we have a brother/sister relationship. I annoy the hell out of her and she beats me. Oh I deserve it. Here's an example: *I walk over to megan and push her shoulder lightly* "Nik, what was that for?" she asked. "What?" pauses I, "Haven't you heard of cow tipping?" Oh I had bruises from that. Badges of honor I call 'em.

Those four people are all I ever been able to count on no matter what. I've been an idiotic a*****e and ended up pushing everyone away even those four. I am fully aware what I need to do to make sure I don't become a hermit again. But that doesn't mean I'm not scared of losing the ones I love.

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