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Chelsie::Loving Aunt:: ~~Baby Sister~~ **Marching Geek** --And--&&Soldier's Proud Girlfriend&&
Hey guys. As many of you know. I've been dating an amazing guy for the past year. If you don't then you should know who he is. This amazing man is Lord_yoko. I've bared my soul to him so many times that it's probably gotten annoying. I know you're probably thinking I'm dumb as all ******** for loving him. Well, age is only a number so don't forget that. This man has my heart to take and break when he pleases but I'm trusting him not to. He's amazing to say the least.
Well, this amazing man gave me the surprise of my life recently. No not a marriage proposal or anything like that. Still too young for that I'm afraid. Whether you think it's a good or bad surprise is your choice. For me, it's a choice that will change both of us. He told me that he joined the army. Oh I know you think I cried my eyes out. Well, I did. I cried so hard I puked. But once I had my mind cleared enough to think, I found myself thinking differently.
I found myself coming to an entirely new conclusion. My first thought is easy to guess. Yes, I was frightened by the thought that he may have to go to Iraq. I was worried that I'd loose the love of my life to fighting. Then I realized how dumb I sounded. At that point it was only me I was thinking about. I hadn't stopped to think what he'd be feeling then. Once I did, I found that I was more proud of him than I'd ever been of anyone before. I realized that just because he signed up, doesn't mean he'll have to fight. I realized if he did have to, it may not be with a gun. He could be using a computer instead.
I calmed down and prayed for him for nearly an hour, just talking to god about it. I said my amen several times only to start again with another concern. When the last one was said I knew it was probably time I stop. He has other people to listen to too. At this point, I had managed to calm down enough to sleep. Sleep granted me with dreams of my soldier. No, I didn't dream he died fighting. I dreamed that my soldier was growing to be a man full of honor and pride. He talked to other soldiers about his girl back home. He told them what I knew. Then, though I'm sure this could be cliche and sound like I'm just some lovestruck teen, I dreamed of him coming back and gathering me in his arms. I could say the rest of this dream here but I think that will be left for only him to know.
I know you probably don't believe me. You probably think I don't know anything. Which maybe I don't. But, I can say I'm proud of my soldier and that no matter what, I love him with my whole heart. I'll always worry about him with the army but I won't make him change his mind. It was his choice to make and I will not change his mind. I refuse to. As long as he knows I will continue my worrying, regardless of what he says, and that I love him I am glad. So, I send my love out to this soldier and all the others that are already joined. As for those girls who love those soldiers, I know the feeling now.
This is the story of a Soldier's Girlfriend's reaction. I know it's only my story and not all others are like mine but the worry, the pain, that all is the same.
I Love My Soldier.
A Note For My Soldier: I love you and I am so proud. You're always on my mind. At night, I wish upon a star for you. Before bed, I pray for you. In the morning, I wake up and remember my dream of you. You are my hero. You are my love. I love you, hun.I Love My Soldier
Because I love Him: I've decided to join up when I'm old enough. But before you all go in and fill my inbox with 'You're not allowed's I am not permitted already by everyone I know to go in and join for fighting. So, as by suggestion of someone I know, I'm gonna go in as a field medic. So don't worry, you won't hear of my getting shot... or worse as that person put it. If you're still disagreeing, don't bother, I've made my decision.
1-800-Punk-Princess · Sat Jun 23, 2007 @ 05:33am · 0 Comments |
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