hellos! i'm not going to continue with my story because if it did get published i could get sued... so back to my life
my life is getting better slowly... im hanging out with my friend nick. talking to him all the time........ my family thinks me and him belong.. believe it or not i know he wouldn't anways. I asked outa couritsity "if i ever asked you out would you go out with me??" and he said no. which kinda hurt... but i got slade so i'm happy
well i have things to share.. so many things to say.
where to start??????????? hmmmmmmmmmmm.... well my dad is gonna get us rich with a invention that he made... FOR ALL FISHERMAN LOOK OUT FOR THE INVENTION!! ITS GONNA HELP YOUR BOAT TO GET IN THE WATER!!! i think he said that it was coming in a couple of weeks... i'm so excited!!!!! but them i had a dream..... wat if i move????????? then i will be sad and don't know anybody at the new school....
My nana becoming an a** whole just because i said a funny remark.............. I hate her............ -tears up a pic of her-
Every one here at my house hates me.. and i think my friends are just using me......... it feels like i don't belong......... but when eva i'm on gaia that changes...... its like the song its never to late.. the on i have on my profile... nobody really doesn't know the real me....... family, friends don't really know who i am.........
why is god picking on me??? why know?????? why can't i be a normal girl with a almost perfect life??????
You can tell wat is my mood..... i'm desspressed, excited, and a little angry. I hope i can change before the summer ends.......... i really do..... i'm going to turn my life up side down..
the only person who is helping me out is my friend nick.... hes always there to talk to me.... (even though he doesn't get up until 12 in the afternoon) but then there is ppl on gaia that i talk to. Iluvcaptainjacksparrow, midnight jade, my sis, slade, twinkle dot, and rory, kaltona. They really know wat i'm abt... i have told them my life, my birth mom, wat i did as a kid.... but know i'm just sitting writing this.... my life is wasting away sitting here........
my birth mother is a terrible mother.... she abuse me and my brother.... acused of my dad killing her, me and my brother...... my life wasn't like other kids.. there was always yelling and screaming.......
wow.. that was a typeful journal page........... so when you talk to me... just remember i'm the girl who is hiding her depression, anger, fear, exitement. I'm nothing but a memory to some ppl. I'm the girl sitting next you, wanting you to hear wat i say
wat ever ppl say, hear, or see is not my problem. I'm a girl who is trying to survive in this world.... i have no wear to run. you have me but you can't take my dignity, love, heart, faith. I'm not the same person any more. i'm not me. i have been listening to song that make me cry. there is no reason why i can't cry. My heart is pounding. Worring abt myself.. wondering when i will die.... But whos to care.... i don't.. i'm a free hearted spirit.
who was able to guess that i didn't belong in this world??? my heart is saying u do belong with i really now that i dont. no one loves me.... every one hates me..... i'm so lonely... is being this lonely hurt so much???? I hear you calling out my name do i dare move???? should i go to a place where i'm never treated like i'm a piece of trash?????
It seems that i can't be trusted... it seems that no one can. my heart aches....... i can't stop from being lonely.. i had an icon that said "even in a crowd i feel alone" thats how i feel right know. i also had another one that said "she must always be alone"............ thats right.. i'm always alone....... why can't the world except me for who i am.......... this feeling of wanting to die i have never felt before....... but i wont kill myself.... this is hard..... i need help
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