Angel_Nyx
I feel like the dirtiest slut right now. I may have just had sex with my ex-boyfriend. And I've sworn to be a virgin until I get married.
My boyfriend of two years and I broke up a few weeks ago, agreeing to just be friends. But everytime I'm with him alone he starts getting, well, seductive. Far more so than when we were dating. In fact we've gone much farther physically since we broke up than we ever had before when we were dating. I guess I'm just easy, or maybe incredibly lusty, I don't know.
But regardless, the bottom line is that I was on top of him, we were naked, and he claims he got inside me by an inch before he realized he was about to ejaculate and he pulled out. We both feel like trash, me beacause I even let this happen, him because he still wanted to go further and he hates himself for it. Thankfully, he's leaving for army boot camp in a few weeks, and I hopefully won't have to worry about this ever again.
Can this truly be considered sex? Am I still anywhere near being a virgin?How did I go from a perfect little on-fire Christian girl to a slut like this? What good Christian guy is ever going to want to marry me after I tell them this? Will God really forgive me for this?
Please you guys, give me your honest oppinions about everything I've just said, not what I want to hear. Any advice and prayers are welcome.
My boyfriend of two years and I broke up a few weeks ago, agreeing to just be friends. But everytime I'm with him alone he starts getting, well, seductive. Far more so than when we were dating. In fact we've gone much farther physically since we broke up than we ever had before when we were dating. I guess I'm just easy, or maybe incredibly lusty, I don't know.
But regardless, the bottom line is that I was on top of him, we were naked, and he claims he got inside me by an inch before he realized he was about to ejaculate and he pulled out. We both feel like trash, me beacause I even let this happen, him because he still wanted to go further and he hates himself for it. Thankfully, he's leaving for army boot camp in a few weeks, and I hopefully won't have to worry about this ever again.
Can this truly be considered sex? Am I still anywhere near being a virgin?How did I go from a perfect little on-fire Christian girl to a slut like this? What good Christian guy is ever going to want to marry me after I tell them this? Will God really forgive me for this?
Please you guys, give me your honest oppinions about everything I've just said, not what I want to hear. Any advice and prayers are welcome.
I've seen a lot of posts saying that God will forgive you. I'm surprised that nobody has called the verse, "examine yourself to see if you're in the faith."
Dear friend, who I don't know very well, it would be terribly foolish of me to say that you're saved when you very possibly might not be. I would encourage you to listen to True and False Conversion to find out what a true convert is and what a false convert and which category you fall into.
Remember, a Christian falls into sin, a non-Christian dives into sin and loves it. The question is simple. Do you love what God loves? Do you hate what God hates? Is your life following the world or is it following God?
A.W. Pink, a famous thelogian in the 60's, wondered if two percent of American Christians were saved. I was too once a false convert, it's a very, very dangerous and deadly path.
I mean this in all love and sincerity. Those who love you the most will tell you the most truth. May God use you in a mighty way to glorify Him.