Today, the struggle of porn came to mind because so many people struggle with it every day. Nearly everybody has been exposed to this type of media because it's so easy to come across, and some people get addicted to it, others watch it once in a while. This is a temptation that most people face on a daily basis. All in all, pornography is a sin. It's a sin that we need to fight to stop.
Here are a few verses concerning this common struggle:
Matthew 5:28 NIV
But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.
1 Corinthians 6:12 - 20 NIV
“I have the right to do anything,” you say—but not everything is beneficial. “I have the right to do anything”—but I will not be mastered by anything. You say, “Food for the stomach and the stomach for food, and God will destroy them both.” The body, however, is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. By his power God raised the Lord from the dead, and he will raise us also. Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, “The two will become one flesh.” But whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit.
Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.
Psalm 119:9 - 10 NIV
How can a young person stay on the path of purity? By living according to your word. I seek you with all my heart; do not let me stray from your commands.
Psalm 119:37 NIV
Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word.
1 John 2:16 NIV
For everything in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but from the world.
*Proverbs 6 & 7 also covers the temptation of sexual immorality so those are worth a look.
Aside from God's word, there was this testimony I came across on the internet and it tends to hit home for a lot of people. This woman's name is Shelley Lubben and she was an ex-porn star so she shares her testimony, which is a powerful one. It's definitely worth a look:
Here is also a memorial video for porn stars who have died while in the pornography industry. It's a dangerous path that people take. Sometimes we need to step back and say, "These porn stars, man or woman, are people like you and me. They need prayer, they need a savior.":
I finished the first video and it really touched me so much, I have problems getting along with my parents, mainly my father, and we get into fights and arguments a lot, although it is getting better, praise God! I was also addicted to watching porn. It's not just a guy thing. But after watching that video, I have vowed to not watch porn again! It's going to be a struggle but with God's help I can do it. I thank you aquatic_blue and ask God to bless you for what you posted.
I also want to add a prayer:
Heavenly Father, Please help anyone who is addicted to porn or in the porn industry/prostitution to get out of that and turn to you completely. I ask that you ease their pain and send them people to help them get to know You. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
That was the first prayer I've ever said as a Christian so I hope it wasn't too shabby
I finished the first video and it really touched me so much, I have problems getting along with my parents, mainly my father, and we get into fights and arguments a lot, although it is getting better, praise God! I was also addicted to watching porn. It's not just a guy thing. But after watching that video, I have vowed to not watch porn again! It's going to be a struggle but with God's help I can do it. I thank you aquatic_blue and ask God to bless you for what you posted.
I also want to add a prayer:
Heavenly Father, Please help anyone who is addicted to porn or in the porn industry/prostitution to get out of that and turn to you completely. I ask that you ease their pain and send them people to help them get to know You. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
That was the first prayer I've ever said as a Christian so I hope it wasn't too shabby
Porn definitely isn't an addiction that only gets the attention of men - that's for sure. The statistics last time I saw them - it was almost 50% of women and 50% of men watched porn - that's about equal.
There is always a better option that porn - reading God's word smile pornography can be a struggle even after one quits because it can cross our minds, but with God and His word, we can fight it off.
To me, prayer is prayer - if a person is praying to God, God is listening no matter what words you use or what format you say you're prayer in. God is awesome like that =)
Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 3:22 pm
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I finished the first video and it really touched me so much, I have problems getting along with my parents, mainly my father, and we get into fights and arguments a lot, although it is getting better, praise God! I was also addicted to watching porn. It's not just a guy thing. But after watching that video, I have vowed to not watch porn again! It's going to be a struggle but with God's help I can do it. I thank you aquatic_blue and ask God to bless you for what you posted.
I also want to add a prayer:
Heavenly Father, Please help anyone who is addicted to porn or in the porn industry/prostitution to get out of that and turn to you completely. I ask that you ease their pain and send them people to help them get to know You. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
That was the first prayer I've ever said as a Christian so I hope it wasn't too shabby
Porn definitely isn't an addiction that only gets the attention of men - that's for sure. The statistics last time I saw them - it was almost 50% of women and 50% of men watched porn - that's about equal.
There is always a better option that porn - reading God's word smile pornography can be a struggle even after one quits because it can cross our minds, but with God and His word, we can fight it off.
To me, prayer is prayer - if a person is praying to God, God is listening no matter what words you use or what format you say you're prayer in. God is awesome like that =)
Almost 50% of women watch porn? Higher than I thought. I thought it'd be like 25-30%, which is still bad. I wish porn would just go away.
I will have to look up verses about adultery and healing and verses similar to those. I am going to join BibleGateway.com and get some tools to help me. I wish there was a Bible study group online for anyone.
I'm still self-conscious when it comes to praying out loud like that and by myself. It's new to me. But I know God is listening to my and everyone else's prayers.
I finished the first video and it really touched me so much, I have problems getting along with my parents, mainly my father, and we get into fights and arguments a lot, although it is getting better, praise God! I was also addicted to watching porn. It's not just a guy thing. But after watching that video, I have vowed to not watch porn again! It's going to be a struggle but with God's help I can do it. I thank you aquatic_blue and ask God to bless you for what you posted.
I also want to add a prayer:
Heavenly Father, Please help anyone who is addicted to porn or in the porn industry/prostitution to get out of that and turn to you completely. I ask that you ease their pain and send them people to help them get to know You. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
That was the first prayer I've ever said as a Christian so I hope it wasn't too shabby
Porn definitely isn't an addiction that only gets the attention of men - that's for sure. The statistics last time I saw them - it was almost 50% of women and 50% of men watched porn - that's about equal.
There is always a better option that porn - reading God's word smile pornography can be a struggle even after one quits because it can cross our minds, but with God and His word, we can fight it off.
To me, prayer is prayer - if a person is praying to God, God is listening no matter what words you use or what format you say you're prayer in. God is awesome like that =)
Almost 50% of women watch porn? Higher than I thought. I thought it'd be like 25-30%, which is still bad. I wish porn would just go away.
I will have to look up verses about adultery and healing and verses similar to those. I am going to join BibleGateway.com and get some tools to help me. I wish there was a Bible study group online for anyone.
I'm still self-conscious when it comes to praying out loud like that and by myself. It's new to me. But I know God is listening to my and everyone else's prayers.
Yeah, most people would think that porn is mostly a man thing, but a lot of women watch it also and become addicted, too. Porn is one thing that I wish could poof out of existence as well. The problem is that it makes so much money and has a such a huge business that it always finds a way to stick around =/ the best we can do is to help others who struggle with it.
BibleGateway is a good one to look up Bible verses smile Blueletterbible.org is also great if you're looking for other tools for Bible study.
Sometimes trying a new experience can feel different or strange for the first time around. Kind of reminds me of when I first wore contact lenses - they were meant to help me see and when I put them in for the first time it was difficult and once they were in my eye, they felt weird and funny. Although, the contact lenses helped me see.
God does indeed listen smile prayer is a great way to communicate with God and open a way for Him to work with us and others in every day life.
Posted: Mon Feb 18, 2013 6:13 pm
No, lie. I also suffer with this addiction too.
After i watch sinful clips, i would ask God to help me and to forgive me.
It is just very hard for me to fight this battle and I am deff. trying.
This fustrates me a lot and it is hard to talk about this with people, because i am scared of their reactions.
After i watch sinful clips, i would ask God to help me and to forgive me.
It is just very hard for me to fight this battle and I am deff. trying.
This fustrates me a lot and it is hard to talk about this with people, because i am scared of their reactions.
A lot of people, when bringing a sin like this out in the open is difficult because there will be people that will be like, "Ewwww," as if they have never come across porn at least one day in their life or didn't enjoy that bit of porn they saw at one point.
For me, when I had this issue - I wasn't exactly addicted, but I did watch it once in a while when those teen hormones were raging and never would come out to anybody about it. Then, I found Shelley Lubben's video and realized, "Wow, this is upsetting. I have to stop watching porn. I must stop watching it. God doesn't like this habit, I feel guilty after watching it, and it's not good." I knew it was wrong to begin with, but felt there wasn't much holding me back. It's hard for people to come up with this sin around fellow believers even because I've known people who have mentioned they have the issue and then people take advantage to use that as black mail - not as an opportunity to help a brother or sister in Christ.
This is an addiction that most people struggle with every single day because the temptation is also there since the internet is so widely available to us. There are also other ways of viewing porn besides the internet so it's hard to not come across that in our every day lives.
Posted: Fri Mar 29, 2013 7:04 pm
If watching every girls body is a sin then im pretty much hopeless, there is not one time that i can remember that i did not look at a girl "lustfully" I know that we can admire beauty but to be honest, there is not one woman ive seen in real life that's actually "beautiful" and not give me any ideas of staring at her rack and/or butt. The only time i saw an actual beautiful woman and not get any lustful ideas was all in my head, AND THAT WAS CAUSED BY AN EVIL, SHE DEMON THAT'S BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR YEARS. Well not anymore now, shes gone but yea.
I don't mean to hurt any girls feelings but im just being honest, i don't like to beat around the bush. I honestly have never ever found one woman in real life that is both beautiful and not give me any sexual ideas. I heard of love at first sight but that never happened to me.
I am a pervert and i have tryed to stop being a perv and watch porn, multiple times but to be honest, its freaking difficult. When i stop, after day 2 i start to feel all moody and mope around alot, then after day 5 i start getting super angry, then after day 7, for a brief moment nothing is wrong, im fine but soon after that after day 9, ill feel super aroused and pretty much anything sets me off. I obviously have a problem with porn but to be honest, if i didn't watch it id have mood problems, i would be overly depressed and end up with suicidal thoughts. If i found a beautiful woman in my life then quiting porn wouldn't be as difficult. In fact it would be easy, i know this is true because when i had a GF a while back, i didn't have even the slightest sexual thought for months. I was too focused on keeping my GF happy than for lust, well every once in a while, after a few weeks, id have a couple thoughts but it was of her. But yea, i had never watched porn when i was in a relationship with her, well exept for that one time but i was deleting it from my computer is all.
If watching every girls body is a sin then im pretty much hopeless, there is not one time that i can remember that i did not look at a girl "lustfully" I know that we can admire beauty but to be honest, there is not one woman ive seen in real life that's actually "beautiful" and not give me any ideas of staring at her rack and/or butt. The only time i saw an actual beautiful woman and not get any lustful ideas was all in my head, AND THAT WAS CAUSED BY AN EVIL, SHE DEMON THAT'S BEEN HAUNTING ME FOR YEARS. Well not anymore now, shes gone but yea.
I don't mean to hurt any girls feelings but im just being honest, i don't like to beat around the bush. I honestly have never ever found one woman in real life that is both beautiful and not give me any sexual ideas. I heard of love at first sight but that never happened to me.
I am a pervert and i have tryed to stop being a perv and watch porn, multiple times but to be honest, its freaking difficult. When i stop, after day 2 i start to feel all moody and mope around alot, then after day 5 i start getting super angry, then after day 7, for a brief moment nothing is wrong, im fine but soon after that after day 9, ill feel super aroused and pretty much anything sets me off. I obviously have a problem with porn but to be honest, if i didn't watch it id have mood problems, i would be overly depressed and end up with suicidal thoughts. If i found a beautiful woman in my life then quiting porn wouldn't be as difficult. In fact it would be easy, i know this is true because when i had a GF a while back, i didn't have even the slightest sexual thought for months. I was too focused on keeping my GF happy than for lust, well every once in a while, after a few weeks, id have a couple thoughts but it was of her. But yea, i had never watched porn when i was in a relationship with her, well exept for that one time but i was deleting it from my computer is all.
Action and intention are incredibly imporant in this matter. If a woman stares at a man and thinks, "Wow, he looks great in that suit!" then it probably isn't lust. If a man stares at a woman and thinks to himself, "What a nice girl!" then it probably isn't lust. Now, if a woman/man stares at a man/woman and thinks, "Wow, they're so hot!" and thinks of sexual things they would do to them then that is most definitely lust, and some make it worse by initiating that thought until it becomes actual sexual contact, which is sinful behavior leading to more sinful behavior.
No one is hopeless, for God give us HOPE and a FUTURE! He has plans for us! If we sin, we need to ask for forgiveness and still try to make things right with God no matter what it takes!
Every person on this planet is unique and beautiful in their own way, and God see's everybody with a value - all people are worth a lot to God both man and woman. True beauty does not come from the outside, but from the inside. How can one say, "That woman is beautiful?" and not know her? How can one say, "That man is handsome?" and not know him? Isn't it what's on the inside that matters? A man or woman may look attractive on the outside, but be harboring wickedness on the inside and need to change.
Watching pornography is a sin that plagues millions of people. It's a giant industry and this type of thing for most is a daily struggle, and it always will be that way. For those who have a severe addiction - it is generally best for them to toss their computer out, throw their TV away, and not walk into stores that may tempt them to buy a porn video or magazine. Some people need to give these things up in order to rid themselves of this sin because there is no other way they are able to do it. Instead of having sources where porn can be viewed, they can get a job or volunteer to do work to keep them busy and away from porn.
No excuse can be made that makes porn right - it's sinful to watch and needs to be rid of. For some, they can use mind over matter and be able to control themselves and stop watching it completely. For others, it may take as much as getting rid of sources to the problem.
Anything can be overcome with God! Our strength is not ours alone, we need to rely on God to help us through. We need to triumph sin with God and through God to overcome Satan. We can do things to aid us in getting over this sin, but we mustn't put ourselves in positions where we act on that sin , or create another sinful situation for our lives.
When we do give up a sin in our lives, we need to be sure that we will never return to it - no matter what. If we give up a sin, and then become tempted and think, "Oh, I'll watch that one porn video and that's it! Then no more for me!" Chances are those who have had an addiction to it whether slight or severe, will fall back into it - addicted once again. Then the process of getting out will have to begin all over again.
Posted: Sat Mar 30, 2013 11:42 am
Ha! Funny, like im gonna throw out my new mac computer and Sony Bravia TV. That's very very expensive, top of the line stuff, im not gonna throw it out, but i can put it up for a bit. Im trying again to quit by cutting off my connection to porn sites so i cant get new porn, then im gonna spend more time away from the computer and if i get the urge, ill have old porn. Then after a few days, ill start to spend more time away from the computer and delete old porn little by little until there's none left and i hardly have time to go online. In theory, it should work but my chances of returning are pretty high, i don't have a GF to keep me busy nor do i have a job yet.
You know, sometimes when i watch porn, yea it gets rid of the urge temporarily and my stress goes down but i do get jealous of the guy in the video and i start to feel lonely. I wish instead of watching what their doing on porn, id be the one doing it, the one getting the love instead of just sitting on the side lines watching it. I wish i did have a beautiful GF that id love dearly with me, so i can show her how id feel but sadly i cant. I absolutely hate being single, i got a 2 person bed but i gotta wake up every morning with no one laying next to me, no "good morning", no kiss, or snuggling, (isnt it weird that im the only guy who actually likes to snuggle with a girl), just me in a big bed, just loathing each morning. crying
Ha! Funny, like im gonna throw out my new mac computer and Sony Bravia TV. That's very very expensive, top of the line stuff, im not gonna throw it out, but i can put it up for a bit. Im trying again to quit by cutting off my connection to porn sites so i cant get new porn, then im gonna spend more time away from the computer and if i get the urge, ill have old porn. Then after a few days, ill start to spend more time away from the computer and delete old porn little by little until there's none left and i hardly have time to go online. In theory, it should work but my chances of returning are pretty high, i don't have a GF to keep me busy nor do i have a job yet.
You know, sometimes when i watch porn, yea it gets rid of the urge temporarily and my stress goes down but i do get jealous of the guy in the video and i start to feel lonely. I wish instead of watching what their doing on porn, id be the one doing it, the one getting the love instead of just sitting on the side lines watching it. I wish i did have a beautiful GF that id love dearly with me, so i can show her how id feel but sadly i cant. I absolutely hate being single, i got a 2 person bed but i gotta wake up every morning with no one laying next to me, no "good morning", no kiss, or snuggling, (isnt it weird that im the only guy who actually likes to snuggle with a girl), just me in a big bed, just loathing each morning. crying
Honestly, if a sin is severe enough that we cannot stop - we need to remove the source. An example of this could be this verse:
Matthew 5:29 - 30 NIV:
If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.
If a person were sinning greatly...let's say because they were an alcoholic. They drank until they were drunk nearly every day. Many would say, "You need to give up alcohol." That is removing the source from the problem. For someone who is addicted, this is a big feat because that addiction is their comfort. There are wines and beers that can cost over $100,000 a bottle - chances are, an addict wouldn't be able to affor this. However, if they were able to get a hold of expensive wines, they would think, "No way, it costs too much." Even cheaper alcoholic beverages hold a high signifcance because the person does anything to get their fix of alcohol. For a drug addict, this would be a similar principal - drugs aren't cheap and for someone who is addicted - incredibly hard to give up. However, isn't it better that they remove the source from their life and get rid of the sin that plagues them? Also, they probably fight every day not to return to it. Same concept goes for those addicted to pornography - when they are truly addicted, they must rid themselves of the source because their addiction is overwhelming so they rid themselves of electronics and magazines to stay away from it and find something better to do. There truly is more to life than material possessions.
Also, material possessions don't last. Possessions break all the time and aren't meant to go on forever. We can't take them with us when we die. When we get to Heaven, there won't be computers, televisions, or any other type of material possession because we'd have God and that is truly all we need because God knows our needs. God can bless us with possessions that make life easier, and He can also take them away if he see's fit. If an object in a person's life causes them to sin, and they are hopelessly addicted and can't have that object at all then they should get rid of it. Better to throw away a computer, television, and magazines and be on the right track for God then to continuously corrupt ourselves with sin.
Some people are able to keep their computers and electronics if they can keep porn habits under control. I haven't watched porn for many many months and if I realize that I have the urge to - I will generally step away from the computer, turn it off, and find something else to do to get my mind off of that. As long as I stick to God's word as well, I can fight the urge to watch pornography. With God, we can combat anything - depending on how severe an addiction is, we need to determine what we may need to rid ourselves of to fix it. Being a believer isn't easy and sometimes we will need to get rid of things in order to keep ourselves on the narrow path.
Getting a girlfriend shouldn't be a solution to an addiction. Make sure if you do get a girlfriend that is is for the proper reasons - reasons such as that you want to see if you get along with her to see if you would marry her in the future. Not only using her to keep your porn addiction at bay. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us! This means, even if we are by ourselves - we need to rely on God's strength as well to help us combat a problem. It's better to combat it once we realize that we are sinning - we need constant prayer, reading of God's word, and ways to keep ourselves from an addiction - in this case porn, by perhaps posting Bible verses against porn on the edge of the computer screen, on the edge of the tv, or other places where a person may access porn so we realize what we're doing. The thing is - at times for some, porn is a few minute deal, for others it's hours - but are those few minutes and/or hours of sin worth it if they pull us away from God?
Why get jealous of those who are in the porn industry? Watch the video I posted if you haven't yet - a lot of these people have low self-esteem, didn't get the correct start in life, took on the industry because it was the figured it was easy money, and some of these people get killed on the job because they are either murdered by clients, or feel so depressed with their lifestyle that they kill themselves. This is an industry that treats these people terribly - wants them to do certain acts that they never wanted to do, but eventually feel forced or are forced to. A lot of people in the porn industry lie saying how they love being a porn star, how fabulous it is, etc. when they don't even like anybody and want to get their pay, and figure ways to con people out of money. Some pull nasty jobs where they charge more in the end if they find out the other person was married by saying, "I'll tell your husband/wife if you don't give me (insane amount of money)." The porn industry is an abusive industry - it destroys a person's mind, it destroys their soul, and it definitely damages the temple. Do you think that these porn stars in videos actually are 100% happy with their life? Do you think that these people don't feel lonely because they have sex with whoever is paying them? What must is be like for these people not to have true love, but only the illusion of it? These people often feel emotional pain on the inside that they hold in until they're alone. Most of these people often get addicted to drugs or alcohol and some end up getting STD's or getting pregnant or getting someone else pregnant. In no way should we be envious of this lifestyle. Don't be fooled that these people have a luxurious lifestyle!
Also, sex does not equal love - that's a false concept in today's society. A person needs to marry someone that they truly are in love with and have no doubts before marrying that they are meant for each other and after marriage is when sex should take place.
A person is able to find happiness without having a romantic partner. If a person can't find happiness on their own - then how are they supposed to bring happiness into a relationship? We can find happiness on our own through God! There are so many reasons to be happy because of God, Jesus Christ, and The Holy Spirit!
Psalm 37:4 NIV:
Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Isaiah 12:3 NIV:
With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.
Psalm 32:10 NIV:
Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.
Posted: Sun Mar 31, 2013 7:45 am
Like i said, i wanted a girlfriend out of love, i wanted a committed relationship, the part about sex and suppression of that urge by her is only a plus, not the main reason. Im not heartless, i do want love but ive been deprived of that for years. In fact my last girlfriend i dated actually cheated on me, even before day 1, she never loved me and yet i was fooled by her, she said she was only with me but she lied. The day before i found out that she was cheating on me was the day i officially wasn't a virgin anymore, she was distant, she was thinking of other things by the looks of her. In fact she soon left in a hurry, i was left wondering if i did something wrong, i felt insecure and thought i wasn't good enough, my first time wasn't so wonderful, in fact i wish i could have never seen my ex. My first kiss wasn't good either, i basically forgot about it.
I had frequent nightmares after we broke up, er separated i guess. I often dreamed each night of sexual inpotance, or that the girl had better things to do, like i was wasting her time. Im afraid of intimacy yet some were in my gut, i need it. I only had sex once in my life, about 3 years ago.
I feel like a messed up idiot, i should have seen it coming. I was young and stupid, ironically like my dad, and here i am today. If it wasn't for me, my dad would have been an actor for movies and have gotten the easy life, but now he lives with his parents, hardly making any money. Im not making it up, he actually said that to me. I know he cares for me but im a hindrance to him, i feel like a bother.
I try to hear Gods word but to be honest, it feels like fantasy to me. It also feels impossible because basically everything i do and like is, according to the Bible, a sin. I don't get swept away by him like others, prayer for me hardly works because the end result is often bad, and im filled with more questions than answers. I had a freaking religious crisis here, eventually i left Christianity for a bit, i wanted to be free from laws, to not be scolded. I eventually joined a club on Wicca but even that felt like fantasy, i didn't even bother with the spells, i just looked up the history is all. I did what ever i wanted and was happy, the witches there even agreed and became my friends, but later, after about a week, i felt too free. Something didn't sit right in my gut, eventually i had a major nightmare that the demons that i fought and killed, came back and killed me in the most brutal way that not even i could have imagined. I remembered that i couldn't sleep for the entire night, i came back to the club the next morning and resigned, my friends wondered why i quit the club so early and i told them of my nightmare that i had, they said that i should go back to Christianity if Wicca is unsettling me and causing nightmares. They also said that i never even casted a spell, that im the only one that delved the deepest in their books, and that i looked distant. I then agreed to go back out of fear of having another horrible nightmare, also to stop this churning in my gut.
I eventually ended up in your club, i just want things to make sense to me and for things to change for the better. My friends still check up on me from time to time to see how im doing now that im back to Christianity. The nightmares have settled down and that churning in my gut stopped which is good. Im still confused on my own religion but ill take confusion over fear any day.
I don't know what to do now, i guess ask for forgiveness but im wondering how i can ask for that if pretty much every thing i do is a sin. There are sins that i am forgiven from that i can personally never forgive. How do you believe in something or someone in religion? I need to start from square one but where is it?
P.S. The She demon was with me even before i joined Wicca, i didn't do it, also how do you play booty grab, ive only played it once on your tank and its not showing again. I got 1000 gold while you had i think 400.
Like i said, i wanted a girlfriend out of love, i wanted a committed relationship, the part about sex and suppression of that urge by her is only a plus, not the main reason. Im not heartless, i do want love but ive been deprived of that for years. In fact my last girlfriend i dated actually cheated on me, even before day 1, she never loved me and yet i was fooled by her, she said she was only with me but she lied. The day before i found out that she was cheating on me was the day i officially wasn't a virgin anymore, she was distant, she was thinking of other things by the looks of her. In fact she soon left in a hurry, i was left wondering if i did something wrong, i felt insecure and thought i wasn't good enough, my first time wasn't so wonderful, in fact i wish i could have never seen my ex. My first kiss wasn't good either, i basically forgot about it.
I had frequent nightmares after we broke up, er separated i guess. I often dreamed each night of sexual inpotance, or that the girl had better things to do, like i was wasting her time. Im afraid of intimacy yet some were in my gut, i need it. I only had sex once in my life, about 3 years ago.
I feel like a messed up idiot, i should have seen it coming. I was young and stupid, ironically like my dad, and here i am today. If it wasn't for me, my dad would have been an actor for movies and have gotten the easy life, but now he lives with his parents, hardly making any money. Im not making it up, he actually said that to me. I know he cares for me but im a hindrance to him, i feel like a bother.
I try to hear Gods word but to be honest, it feels like fantasy to me. It also feels impossible because basically everything i do and like is, according to the Bible, a sin. I don't get swept away by him like others, prayer for me hardly works because the end result is often bad, and im filled with more questions than answers. I had a freaking religious crisis here, eventually i left Christianity for a bit, i wanted to be free from laws, to not be scolded. I eventually joined a club on Wicca but even that felt like fantasy, i didn't even bother with the spells, i just looked up the history is all. I did what ever i wanted and was happy, the witches there even agreed and became my friends, but later, after about a week, i felt too free. Something didn't sit right in my gut, eventually i had a major nightmare that the demons that i fought and killed, came back and killed me in the most brutal way that not even i could have imagined. I remembered that i couldn't sleep for the entire night, i came back to the club the next morning and resigned, my friends wondered why i quit the club so early and i told them of my nightmare that i had, they said that i should go back to Christianity if Wicca is unsettling me and causing nightmares. They also said that i never even casted a spell, that im the only one that delved the deepest in their books, and that i looked distant. I then agreed to go back out of fear of having another horrible nightmare, also to stop this churning in my gut.
I eventually ended up in your club, i just want things to make sense to me and for things to change for the better. My friends still check up on me from time to time to see how im doing now that im back to Christianity. The nightmares have settled down and that churning in my gut stopped which is good. Im still confused on my own religion but ill take confusion over fear any day.
I don't know what to do now, i guess ask for forgiveness but im wondering how i can ask for that if pretty much every thing i do is a sin. There are sins that i am forgiven from that i can personally never forgive. How do you believe in something or someone in religion? I need to start from square one but where is it?
P.S. The She demon was with me even before i joined Wicca, i didn't do it, also how do you play booty grab, ive only played it once on your tank and its not showing again. I got 1000 gold while you had i think 400.
What you need to ask yourself is, "Would God be pleased if I was doing what I'm doing right now?" and the need to truly determine between right and wrong is a critical point in Christianity. We have forgiveness when we stumble and mess up and we can learn from that to become better in God's eyes. To know what is sin, we need to read God's word, study what the sins he is talking about truly are. As humans we are tempted and can fall into quite a trap if we get into it too deep, and God is the only one that can pull us out.
To choose confusion over fear isn't any better than choosing fear over confusion.
We are told not to be afraid:
Isaiah 41:10 NIV:
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
We are also told that our God is not a God of confusion. God reveals much about himself, shows His love for us, and lets us know He is our crying shoulder and that He provides what we need.
1 Corinthians 14:33 NIV:
For God is not a God of disorder but of peace—as in all the congregations of the Lord’s people.
If you say, "Everything I do is a sin," and that's true - ask God for the strength to fix it and ask for forgiveness - don't just say, "God forgive me." and keep doing the same sin repeatedly. God always listens and will forgive again and again. It's also wise that on our part we make an effort to stay away sin all together - avoid temptation, and rid ourselves of any sin that is going on in our lives. It's most definitely possible. Jesus came to this earth as a man and he indeed lived as a man for a while - this shows us not only that He loves us, but also that we can strive to be good in God's eyes. We only need to read God's word, make our our actions and intentions are good, pray, ask God for help when we need it, and ask for forgiveness for any wrongs we have done.
Ha! Funny, like im gonna throw out my new mac computer and Sony Bravia TV. That's very very expensive, top of the line stuff, im not gonna throw it out, but i can put it up for a bit. Im trying again to quit by cutting off my connection to porn sites so i cant get new porn, then im gonna spend more time away from the computer and if i get the urge, ill have old porn. Then after a few days, ill start to spend more time away from the computer and delete old porn little by little until there's none left and i hardly have time to go online. In theory, it should work but my chances of returning are pretty high, i don't have a GF to keep me busy nor do i have a job yet.
You know, sometimes when i watch porn, yea it gets rid of the urge temporarily and my stress goes down but i do get jealous of the guy in the video and i start to feel lonely. I wish instead of watching what their doing on porn, id be the one doing it, the one getting the love instead of just sitting on the side lines watching it. I wish i did have a beautiful GF that id love dearly with me, so i can show her how id feel but sadly i cant. I absolutely hate being single, i got a 2 person bed but i gotta wake up every morning with no one laying next to me, no "good morning", no kiss, or snuggling, (isnt it weird that im the only guy who actually likes to snuggle with a girl), just me in a big bed, just loathing each morning. crying
Honestly, if a sin is severe enough that we cannot stop - we need to remove the source. An example of this could be this verse:
Matthew 5:29 - 30 NIV:
If your right eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.
If a person were sinning greatly...let's say because they were an alcoholic. They drank until they were drunk nearly every day. Many would say, "You need to give up alcohol." That is removing the source from the problem. For someone who is addicted, this is a big feat because that addiction is their comfort. There are wines and beers that can cost over $100,000 a bottle - chances are, an addict wouldn't be able to affor this. However, if they were able to get a hold of expensive wines, they would think, "No way, it costs too much." Even cheaper alcoholic beverages hold a high signifcance because the person does anything to get their fix of alcohol. For a drug addict, this would be a similar principal - drugs aren't cheap and for someone who is addicted - incredibly hard to give up. However, isn't it better that they remove the source from their life and get rid of the sin that plagues them? Also, they probably fight every day not to return to it. Same concept goes for those addicted to pornography - when they are truly addicted, they must rid themselves of the source because their addiction is overwhelming so they rid themselves of electronics and magazines to stay away from it and find something better to do. There truly is more to life than material possessions.
Also, material possessions don't last. Possessions break all the time and aren't meant to go on forever. We can't take them with us when we die. When we get to Heaven, there won't be computers, televisions, or any other type of material possession because we'd have God and that is truly all we need because God knows our needs. God can bless us with possessions that make life easier, and He can also take them away if he see's fit. If an object in a person's life causes them to sin, and they are hopelessly addicted and can't have that object at all then they should get rid of it. Better to throw away a computer, television, and magazines and be on the right track for God then to continuously corrupt ourselves with sin.
Some people are able to keep their computers and electronics if they can keep porn habits under control. I haven't watched porn for many many months and if I realize that I have the urge to - I will generally step away from the computer, turn it off, and find something else to do to get my mind off of that. As long as I stick to God's word as well, I can fight the urge to watch pornography. With God, we can combat anything - depending on how severe an addiction is, we need to determine what we may need to rid ourselves of to fix it. Being a believer isn't easy and sometimes we will need to get rid of things in order to keep ourselves on the narrow path.
Getting a girlfriend shouldn't be a solution to an addiction. Make sure if you do get a girlfriend that is is for the proper reasons - reasons such as that you want to see if you get along with her to see if you would marry her in the future. Not only using her to keep your porn addiction at bay. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us! This means, even if we are by ourselves - we need to rely on God's strength as well to help us combat a problem. It's better to combat it once we realize that we are sinning - we need constant prayer, reading of God's word, and ways to keep ourselves from an addiction - in this case porn, by perhaps posting Bible verses against porn on the edge of the computer screen, on the edge of the tv, or other places where a person may access porn so we realize what we're doing. The thing is - at times for some, porn is a few minute deal, for others it's hours - but are those few minutes and/or hours of sin worth it if they pull us away from God?
Why get jealous of those who are in the porn industry? Watch the video I posted if you haven't yet - a lot of these people have low self-esteem, didn't get the correct start in life, took on the industry because it was the figured it was easy money, and some of these people get killed on the job because they are either murdered by clients, or feel so depressed with their lifestyle that they kill themselves. This is an industry that treats these people terribly - wants them to do certain acts that they never wanted to do, but eventually feel forced or are forced to. A lot of people in the porn industry lie saying how they love being a porn star, how fabulous it is, etc. when they don't even like anybody and want to get their pay, and figure ways to con people out of money. Some pull nasty jobs where they charge more in the end if they find out the other person was married by saying, "I'll tell your husband/wife if you don't give me (insane amount of money)." The porn industry is an abusive industry - it destroys a person's mind, it destroys their soul, and it definitely damages the temple. Do you think that these porn stars in videos actually are 100% happy with their life? Do you think that these people don't feel lonely because they have sex with whoever is paying them? What must is be like for these people not to have true love, but only the illusion of it? These people often feel emotional pain on the inside that they hold in until they're alone. Most of these people often get addicted to drugs or alcohol and some end up getting STD's or getting pregnant or getting someone else pregnant. In no way should we be envious of this lifestyle. Don't be fooled that these people have a luxurious lifestyle!
Also, sex does not equal love - that's a false concept in today's society. A person needs to marry someone that they truly are in love with and have no doubts before marrying that they are meant for each other and after marriage is when sex should take place.
A person is able to find happiness without having a romantic partner. If a person can't find happiness on their own - then how are they supposed to bring happiness into a relationship? We can find happiness on our own through God! There are so many reasons to be happy because of God, Jesus Christ, and The Holy Spirit!
Psalm 37:4 NIV:
Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Isaiah 12:3 NIV:
With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.
Psalm 32:10 NIV:
Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord’s unfailing love surrounds the one who trusts in him.
I would just like to point out that the Bible says that homosexuality is a sin.. I'm not trying to pick a fight, I'm just concerned about your understanding about what the Bible says about your lifestyle, Big Boss. (See Genesis 19:1-11 and Leviticus 18:22).
Another thing about your post that is close to my heart is feeling like you /need/ someone to be with you and make you feel good. I felt like that for a long time, but every relationship I had failed. I was expecting them to do things for me without anything in return. I would yearn every night for someone to hold me, but now that I'm older, I realize that God was the only one I needed. If my relationship with him was solid, I wouldn't have had those thoughts. Maybe I would have thought it would be nice to have someone to hold me, but I don't think it would have been as strong. One thing I've noticed, is that the more desperate you are, the more crumby guys (or girls, as your case may be) you'll end up dating. These guys could be losers, abusive, addicted to drugs, or amazing, and you could lose them because of how fast you want the relationship to go than they do. Relationships take time and don't end up how you want them in one day, or even one month. That's something that my mom is still trying to figure out. She expects this man to love her just because she smothers him with gifts and sweet texts and how highly she thinks of him and how much she loves him. She doesn't understand that the more she pesters him about being with her, the more she pushes him away.
I'll pray for you that you'll learn to trust God and depend on Him for the intimacy you're yearning for. I'll pray for your moods and your urges. It can't be an easy thing to deal with, but I know you can do it with help from God. The Bible says that you can do anything through God who gives you strength.
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